Different faces of me

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

nothing much to blog actually... sekadar nak tulis aje.. banyak masa la kan.. hehe. okie, pertama sekali, kawan sekolah ku, Nur Rasyidah Ibrahim akan bertunang pada hari sabtu ni!! alahai, dah nak tunang kawan sorang ni. but seriously, i am so afraid bila dengar pasal tunang2 ni.. for me, it's still a long way to go.. though i do want to have a serious commitment but not for now. takut sangat... la, berbual pasal tunang pulak.. ok, bukan nak cakap apa pasal org2 tunang, don't take offence ya.. ni aku cakap pasal aku nye diri.. sedangkan dlm berkasih2an ni, kalau ada salah faham sikit nak minta break, ini kan pula nak bertunag, makcik2 pakcik2 sdra mara satu kampung dah heboh.. tup2 putus. eee.. takut!! geram tau. alah, mungkin aku cakap ni sbb aku ni masih muda remaja that's why.. aku sayang hamza but kita tak ada cita2 lagi utk kahwin. walau pun ada hasrat nak hidup sama2. dah ada duit baru bole bukak mulut. dia masih ada lagi setahun nak complete NS, lepas tu kita tgh kumpul duit nak beli motor besar, lepas dia beli motor blackbird, insyaAllah, baru kumpul duit utk kahwin pulak.. insyaAllah.. hmm.. semoga murah rezeki kita bersama..
eh, itu aje la nak cakap.. tak tau apa lagi.. hidup aku bukan nye bagus sgt.. fikiran ni tak dapat ikut escort org kahwin.. :( nak sama2 dgn family MJ lagi..
ada tadi hamza cakap aku gemuk!! dia cakap tayar dia nak dekat pancit sbb gemuk sgt.. alamak eh, wa sot aje kan.. dia pun sama aje kan.. you lagi teddy bear! ;) my lovely huggable teddy bear!! best kalau buat snuggle up.. hehe.. dah hal rumahtangga jgn dibawa public. hehe...

sealed with a kiss
12:05 PM

Monday, July 25, 2005

alamak eh, kok tak bole.. Bingit nye hari ni........... sementara org sume tak leh dengar aku nye lagu di blog ini, biar aku saje yg syiok sendiri ok? lagu2 power kaduk aku ada, tak leh tengok pulak... suka hati blog ni la.. benci aku!!

RIZA GERAM!!!!!! eeee.....

sealed with a kiss
2:20 PM

kays, so today, adalah hari yg paling membosankan.. dari tadi depan computer tak buat apa.. download barang aje. bosan seh. tak ada org nak chat kat msn pulak.. hmm, pergi beli sarapan utk adik beradik 2 ekor tu.. ingat nak breakfast dgn Hamza kat McD tapi dia cakap dia sakit.. so, ok i ask him to rest.. terus tak ada selera nak makan seh, dari pagi belum makan makanye.. on the afternoon, he called me up. tgh syiok2 berbual, gaduh pulak.. alamak eh.. menyirap sia. pasal apa tau? tak yah bilang la.. cuma memang rasa menyirap ah.. tu sbb letak lagu System of a down ni.. EEEE!!!! aku GERAM!!! nak buat kerja skola, tak ada microsoft office, nak print, dah tak ada paper, dah tak ada ink.. sial ah.. semua benda tak kene seh. nak jumpa hamza, kot gaduh lagi.. nak kelua, sendiri boring pulak.. i hate today! eee... perut lapar agaknye sbb semua tak kene.. tak kan nak besar kan bontot aje seh..

ah, sebelum terlupa, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIAH!! my bestfriend... semoga cepat dapat boyfriend.. hehe..

malam nanti blog lagi la..

sealed with a kiss
8:20 AM

Sunday, July 24, 2005

heya!! just came back from my bowling game with my MJ Family.. went to the Leisure Bowl at East Coast. played 2 games. malu sia.. tak tau main.. asyik longkang aje.. hehe.. tapi yg penting nye fun.. and dapat kalahkan Patalong.. hahha!! MJ Mail la.. Dee dgn Shahrul main power seh.. abg Hammad main pun not bad.. Hamza for a beginner ok jugak.. sbb kita sume dapat kalahkan PATALONG!!! yeah!! hehe.. rupa nye Hamza organize this bowling thing.. not bad matair aku ni.. anyway, balik nasib tak kene marah.. rilek aje.. cume puzzled with Ayang's behaviour waktu balik.. tiba2 berubah seh. kenapa B? tell me k. anyway, i'm happy to get back with my Family of MJ.. cuma i'll miss the escort rasanye.. coz my family at home mungkin nak gi JB.. hmm.. nak ikut escort!! tak pe, asal kan dapat gi abg Wan nye tunang dgn Liz.. tak sabar seh.. MJ peeps, you make my day!! baby, you make it all happen.. thank you!! love ya all esp Sayang! muacks!!

sealed with a kiss
2:18 PM

Friday, July 22, 2005

this song describes my feeling nowadays.. enough sad. too distraught, too stressed out & too whatever.. feel down sia. anybody there to heal me? :'(

I FEEL SO LONELY!!!

sealed with a kiss
3:33 PM

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

okie.. long time no blogging huh? bz la beb.. bz dgn apa pun aku tak tau. ok, let me see.. actually nothing much to blog cuma ya, sekali lagi aku telah tukar skin blog ni.. ada muka sendiri seh.. puik! hehe.. anyway, lagu yg tgh main ni dari Rossa. sedap kan? hmm.. still waiting for my friend to reply my msg.. msg dia kat dia nye blog.. eh, mana kau ah? banyak nak tulis, tapi tiba2 tak ada apa yg datang dlm otak ni.. tetiba tak tau nak type apa.. ah, pasal blog skin ni, aku dapat dari blogskins.com.. yg memikat hati nye is that kat bintang2 tepi tu, if you move the cursor there, nanti ada mcm firework kelua.. cantik. i have always liked fireworks. ntah kenapa. banyak kenangan kot dgn bunga api? kenanagan apa? aku pun tak tau. blur la.. hmm, eh, tak ada org nak berbual ke dekat tag aku? boring la... tak kan nak tido seh.. baru kul 9. msn pun tak ada org. Yahoo! Messenger pun tak ada.. dah la.. merajuk ah.. :(

sealed with a kiss
12:21 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

1st of all, wanna thanks aeshot for helping me with the loading of my music. no longer using iWebTunes. well this song is from Damien Rice-The Blowers Daughter. taken from the soundtrack of the movie Closer. the movie is complicated yet it is one of the good movies produced. but only for 21 years and above ok. rated R21. cebah.. aku kes lain, abang aku bawak balik. haha!!
well today start of me & khaliesah terpisah. hari ni sorang je.. coz liesa dah kene tukar klas. wa sot aje kan.. but today we watched the movie Madagascar. sampai 3 kali hari ni. anyway, ok jugak ah. watched Madagascar at the cinema with hamza. the show is not as fun as Monster Inc or Toy Story. but kalau nak cakap pasal cartoon kan, the one i like most is The Lion King 1 1/2. haha! tak pernah dengar kan.. i also tak tau kalau2 movie ni ada kat cinema ke tidak. it's about Timon And Pumbaa. kelakar giler. i like cartoon character yg ugly. i don't like yg cute2. for example: between Sylvester and Tweety, i prefer Sylvester. between Tom & Jerry, i prefer Tom. between Bugs Bunny and Tazmania, i prefer Taz. ( hamza gave me a taz plush toy on our um. . ntah) and between Simba and Timon& Pumba, i prefer the latters. gee~ maybe because kita sama2 tak lawa jadi sedarla diri tu siapa..
balik, hamza fetched me home. he wanted to pinjam my thumbdrive coz i suro dia scan gambar2 kat pit. now.. waiting for his call. smlm i waited sampai kul 1 pagi for him to call sampai tertido. rupanya, 145 dia call. everytime he called and i am unable to answer his call, i will feel so bad..
i am so touched on Saturday night when he sang for me a song.. actually i was the one singing the song 1st. then he sang it for me.. waktu dengar, i cried & cried. tak sangka yg he knew the song also. coz my guy friends yg dulu2 tak tau the song and when i sing, i tot yg hamza tak dengar.. it' s a song from Saleem Iklim-Patah Ranting Dicermin Usia. kenapa aku nangis coz i've always wish and dream that someday or one day, a guy would actually sing the song for me. the lyric was so sweet..
kau kasihku
kilauanmu bak mutiara
tak terpamer di bingkai kaca
walau hujan berkurun di danau kasih bergelora
tak kan tawar
lautan cintaku..

and that night my wish had come true! seriously, it' s the best feeling. i feel that i'm on cloud nine. ya, be it. org nak kata aku emotional cakap la.. asal kan aku dapat mengecap impian yg selama ini terpendam.. haha! konon seh.
hmm.. apa lagi nak post eh? tak de lagi ah. perhaps malam sikit kalau ada apa nak berbual, post lagi ah.. bye!

sealed with a kiss
11:35 AM

Monday, July 11, 2005

here's a personality test for all of you. gotten from um, ah.. i dunno. hehe. well, just see if your numbers do match your personality.

let's check out............

If you were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are Number 1.

If you were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month you are Number 2.

If you were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then you are Number 3.

If you were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then you are Number 4.

If you were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then you are Number 5.

If you were born on the 6th, 15th, 24th of any month then you are Number 6.

If you were born on the 7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you are Number 7.

If you were born on the 8th, 17th, 26th of any month then you are Number 8.

If you were born on the 9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you are Number 9.

Number 1 You are smart, frank, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, and jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, friendly, and authoritative.
Famous Person always want to be and regarded as first on position, they are often like to be independent, will never be under others, self confident people!
You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get married when you mature!
You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis.
You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy, you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction and respect you.
You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and talented in numerous issues!
But make sure in your life, you will always have some people who will work hard to support. Because of your smart behavior, some people will hate you too.
Your family life is very cool; you will have a very nice partner & wonderful children. You are Pioneer, Independent & Original.

Your best match is 4, 6, 8
Your good match is 3, 5, 7.

Number 2

No matter what, every one will love you because your ruler is the Moon and every one loves the Moon, huh!! Well, you are a person who daydreams a lot.
You have very low-self confidence; you need back up for every move in your life. You are very much unpredictable means you do change according to time and circumstances.
Selfish and have a very strong sense of musical, artistic talent, and verbal communication. Your attitudes are like the Moon comes to Gloom and fade away so everybody can expect changes in you.
You can be a next Mahatma Gandhi who does peace love or you can be a Hitler who wants to destroy the mankind and peace. I mean in the community and your own home. If you really have a deep thought about your own, believe in God, you can feel the difference, which will make you stronger! Most of the time your words are a kind of would be happening.
True! You can predict the situation. You will become poets, writers, or any artistic business people! You are not strong in love, so you will be there and here till you get marry.
If you are a girl, you will be a responsible woman in the whole family. If you are a man, you will involve in fights and arguments in the family or vice-versa.
You are gentle, intuitive with a broad vision, a power behind the scenes, well balanced people!!!

Your best match is 2, 5, and 9 no other people can put up with you!!!

Number 3
You are a person of hardhearted, selfish most of the times, religious, loves to climb up in your life. You always tend to have lots of problems within your family in the early stages but you will put up with everything.
You have strong word power, pretty happy face, so wherever you go, you always have got what you wanted!!! And from the birth you always wanted to work hard in order to achieve something. You will not get anything without hard work!
When you reach a Man/Woman age, you want other younger listen to you because you want younger people to respect older people. You do set so many examples to others. Generally you're not a cool person. It's not easy dealing with you! But once you like someone's attitude, then here you go. It will be a lasting friendship.
You always have respect from others. Your life seems to have lots of worries and problems but they won't be long. You will always have brilliant kids!!!
You love money a bit too much so temptation will push you to endless trying. If you are a guy, you will be looking after your family and helping friends, and will spend a life time just being generous and (except 21st born Men) you will be such an example of how to be in the culture & Life!!!
If you are girl, then it's your good character and hardworking attitude you always follow. You are a Freedom Lover; Creative Ambition focused who brings Beauty, Hope & Joy to this world!!!

Your best match are 6, 9.
Good match are 1, 3, 5.

Number 4
You are very stubborn and very hard working. You have rough word power, which might put lots of people away from you. You may cause nuisance to others if you are a man. You often understand others well and their problems.
If you are a girl you are very good with studies and arts.
If you are guy you spend most of the time after girl friends. You will have fun life with mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get away with their life and you will become empty handed and don't know what to do, so be careful!!
You love to spend anyway!!! Your good will is you are always there to help family and friends. You always fall in love in younger age as well.
You need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart and beware of your relations too. You are practical, patient, persistent, and a bit old-fashioned.
You best matches are 1, 8.
Good matches are 5, 6, and 7.

Number 5
You are very popular within the community. You can get things done by just chatting to even enemies! You have a pretty good business mind.
You are someone who acts on impulse. You will be famous if you open up a business, get involve in share dealings, music etc.
Very popular with sense of humor, you are the one your friends and families will always ask for help and you are the one actually get money on credit and help your friends! You will have more than 1 relationship, but when you get settle down you will be a bit selfish.
Anyway, because your other half will have a pretty good amount of control in you. Be careful you tend to go for other relationships/contacts even you are married at times because of your popularity. You are someone who gets along with anyone because the number 5 is the middle number. You like changes and freedom.
You are an Explorer with Magic on your face. You learn your life through experience and it's your Best Teacher!!!
Your best matches are 1, 2, and 9.
Good matches are 6, 8.

Number 6
You are born to enjoy. You don't care about others; you always want to enjoy your lifetime. You are a person. You will be very good in either education or in business management! You are talented, kind (but only with people who you think are nice), beautiful girls and guys.
Popular and more than lucky with anything in their Lives. All the goodness does comes to you. The mind and body is just made perfect.
If you are a number 6 man, you will experience looks from most girls and will involve in more than few relationships until you get marry!!! If you are girl, most of them will get marry/engage early. You are caring towards your family and friends.
You are a person of Compassion, Comfort & Fairness, Good judgment, and after all you can heal this world to make peace forever because you have great power of caring.
Your best matches are 1, 6, and 9.
Good matches are 4, 5.

Number 7
You have got the attraction to anyone out there. You are realistic, confident, happy, a talented individual in your Education, Music, Arts, Singing, and most importantly Acting. You have real problems with bad temper!!
If you are girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above, you give up things for your parents, I mean you value your family status a lot. You will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age!
If you are a guy, you are popular with Girls. You are a very talented too!
Most of the number 7s faces lots of problems with their marriage life. Only a very few are happy!! It's probably the Lord give you all sort of humans talents and you are about to suffer in family life, so you need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you might end-up single!!!
You are wonderful, Friendly, Artistic, Happy person. You are born to contribute lot to this world!!!
Your best match is 2.
Good matches are 1, 4.

Number 8
You are a very strong personality, there's no one out there will understand you. You are very good at pointing your finger at some thing!!! You are more likely to suffer from the early age poverty. If your times are not good you might lose either of your parents and end up looking after your entire family.
You often suffer all the way in life. The problems will not allow you to study further, but you will learn the life in a very practical way!!! You are the one will fight for justice and may die in the war too!!!
You are normally very reserved with handful of friends and most of the time, live life lonely and always prepared to help. Well, once you get marry (which is often late) then your bad lucks will go away a bit, then you become safe. Beware of un-expected problems from the terror, government, poisonous animals & accidents.
You are someone with discipline, persistence, courage that will take you to the Success!! You are a Great part of a team, family and a fighter!!!
Your Best matches are 1, 4, and 8.
Good match is 5.

Number 9
Hey, you guys are the un-compatible people in the world; you are so strong, physically and mentally. You often have big-aims.
You will work hard and hard to get there, normally you suffer in the early age from family's problems and generally you will have fighting life, but when you achieve what you have done, it's always a big-task!!
You are so much respected in the community. You are a person who can make a challenge and successfully finish the matter off. You are very naughty in your younger age, often beaten up by your parents, and involve in fights and you seemed to have lots of injuries in your lifetime, but when you grow, you become calm and macho type!!!
Tell you what; Love is not an easy matter for you. You are good in engineering or banking jobs because people always trust you! Your family life is very good, but will have worries over your children. Your qualities are humanitarian, patient, quick witted & compassionate, You are born to achieve targets and serve every one all equally without any prejudice!
You are totally a Role Model to everybody in the world for a Great Inspiration!!!
Your best matches are 3, 5, 6, and 9.
Good match is 2.

so how? i'm no. 7 and i find it true 98%. haha! i'm not sure about the marriage life. so, please tag me and tell me what's yours?

sealed with a kiss
8:45 AM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

okay for the real post.. hehe..today have to work at our roadshow at tkc. my working hours is from 1 to 6. yeeha! get to eat breakfast with my family. so sweet. jarang seh kita dapat makan sesama. okay, so from morning i dah start editing my blog. asyik salah2 aje. in the end give up and terus gi tkc. on the way there, nana called saying that ghazi could not be contacted. ghazi, a child under my care, was supposed to perform there. but Alhamdulillah, he did came though it's late. but he did not miss his performance. then i was stationed at the young chef's. mak! kene kat luar panas? habis make up chek tau. after doing some thing, one of my mdm, called me to go to the backstage. i have to go up the stage with the children. gabra beb. but a fun experience. hmm.. then my mum pun sampai. hehe.. moral support from her. dah habis semua, my mum jumpa kawan2 dia.. they would want to take picture with somebody. ya, so i called him and they took photo with him. malu nye! ya, then my mum was so pleased when somebody said to her that: "your daughter is a good girl, she's so good. you are lucky to have her as your daughter". ehem, bukan nak puji diri sendiri. i was so terkejut with that statement. i dun expect that person to say that about me. Alhamdulillah! all praises to Allah! i have my flaws but people do appreciate me. came back home and start again with my bloggy thing. changed the skin and to me, it look nice. haha! well, better than last time. put in tagboard, knows already how to link up. add a song to it. the song is nice right? i know.. hehe. then install yahoo messenger. seems to me that Yahoo! Messenger is better than MSN. but both is good. i can say that. so you people can chat with me on either place. more, Yahoo! have a LaunchRadio. it' s fun you see. but, i know few people using Yahoo! messenger. why don't you try it out? okay, so had a lil argument with sayang but hopefully he's ok. i just want him to know that i love him so much! love is pain right? whatever! ;) okies, enough for today. will post again tomorrow if i have the time. insyaAllah.

sealed with a kiss
1:55 PM

hey i'm back!! after so long did not blog at blogger.. i have a new blog at frenster but still wanna do here. hehe.. changed everything. never know that editing is actually quite simple. haha! if you noticed, my last post was about 6 months ago. hehe.. that time was so kental. now, cedebah! haha, puji diri sendiri la kan. by the way kan, masih tak tau nak tulis links ah. boleh tolong? kalau bole, alangkah indahnya.. hey, chat with me k at tagboard. hmm.. kalau ingat lagi apa nak tulis, saya post lagi k.
bye!!

sealed with a kiss
11:10 AM