Different faces of me

Sunday, April 30, 2006

i miss him.. soo much!! bila bole jumpa????? tak mau kerja selalu la...

went to yishun just now for my niece bday..

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY LAILA!!

keliling satu bugis cari hadiah.. so i bought her a necklace. then decide to buy my closest niece, Qad a very belated persent too.. so kill 2 birds with one stone. habis hutang aku. haha!

**then while walking just now, bumped into my former classmates. Zhahirah & Aisyah Rosli. haiz, i dunno.. when i see them, my heart was like beating fast. i was so excited! but speechless.. i have lots & lots to tell them but i can't. i wanna say that i miss sec 4 life so much! i miss everyone.. i miss those times.. i wanna hug them but i can't. i feel just now as if i'm wearing my school uniform and we were just like meeting everyday.. but ppl change ya.. we're young adults now. and those were just memories that we should cherish.. ok, enuff of that.**

for laila susah sikit nak cari managed to get the best.. for qad senang aje.. bought her a black crystal necklace and she said, she likes it so much.. i know her taste mah..

nothing more just miss him only. miss him..

sealed with a kiss
2:18 PM

Friday, April 28, 2006

aaaaaarrrrrrggggggghhhhhhh!!!!!!

i love my new blog skin!!!

it's sooooooo personal right? like this is what i called, straight from the heart..

and i am amazed by the result..

haha!

gonna keep this skin for long..

on cloud nine, and i think that the song suits it very much!!

okay, will awe at it again now...

*everybody say.. awwwwww*

sealed with a kiss
1:31 PM

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

and now, i am contemplating again whether to go or give it a miss for the Bangkok trip. if i miss this time again, the management sure will see red eyes to me.

yes, our staff retreat this yr will be at Bangkok, Thailand. i am jolly happy to go but at this situations, i just can't leave him.. he need me. i know.

so how?? i wouldn't wanna hurt any parties. i'm trying to comply with everything.. but again..

didn't sleep last night at all! and end up getting a high fever and visit the poly and got 2 days MC. eh, murah eh doctor kat poly? lain kali gi lagi.. haha!

anyway, i'm totally speechless. dunno why.

i wanna say out the things in my heart but i have to refrain it. haiz..

just that i can say.. B, i will always be with you.. Insya Allah.

just a gentle reminder to all, and pls do take it seriously!!! i mean it. i learnt a lesson.
pls.. be careful on the road. you never know what's going to happen. those driving/riding, do not speed and try to beat the red light. biar lambat asal selamat.
to pedestrians, pls! use the traffic light to cross the road. and pls! cross only when you see the green man. and pls! do not try to be funny and run when u see there's vehicle approaching..

those boyfriends, husbands, gentlemen out there, even if u dun love ur girlfriends,wives,ladies, at least, do love yourself.

sealed with a kiss
7:53 AM

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

wei!!! saya boring giler.. tolong!!!!

sealed with a kiss
9:12 AM

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Happy 20th for both of us!!

sealed with a kiss
11:25 AM

Haruskah aku menerima

kasihmu yang baru menguntum bunga

Jangan hanya indah di mata

Jangan disiarkan madah cinta

Namun bintang bukannya satu

Kerlipan hatiku ingin kau buru

Ada hanya kau kehampaan

Jangan aku yang jadi alasan

Ku fikir kau teman biasa

Tidak akan berputik cinta

Mungkin jua belum menjelma

Aku tak sanggup dikecewa

Cintaku satu untuk selamanya

Aku pencinta yang setia

Mustahil ada yang kedua

sealed with a kiss
10:38 AM

Monday, April 17, 2006

isy, had lotsa lotsa lotsa fun fun fun today!! early morning, went to Al-Wehdah, the Arab Association for the majlis maulid with my family.. *ehem*. baik kan?? hehe.. and went back to tukar baju.. asal eh? nak kelua dgn hamza la... miss him again, baru dpt jumpa lepas 4 hari.. ok, 3 hari setengah. haha!

we do not have any plan initially.. meet him pun serabai aje. dgn t-shirt OP and slipper OP.. selekeh to the max nye.. then i suggest why not kita gi "buang duit". haha! and suprisingly, he agreed. so, i ajak la gi tengok wayang.. ajak depa pi Great World City, sekali depa salah masuk lane dah gi beach road.. so he said gi kat Shaw Ctr la. tengok movie kat sana.. alahai.. 3 aje? so aku ajak la gi Suntec City.. jalan kaki gi Suntec and tengok movie kat sana.. beli tix dulu tengok Ice Age 2 kul 530. haha.. lame seh. jam masih kul 330. so apa nak buat kan? dia nak famous amos pulak. so i drag him la gi marina. turun bawah nampak Ben & Jerry. tot of having ice-cream there.. but the price, malaun betul. sikit peh mahal.. tak jadi aku.. nak basahkan tekak dgn ice-cream $8? tak muai.. turun basement beli la New Zealand Natural.. haha! ice-cream jugak.. harga $6. haiz, tak dak beza no..

jalan lagi gi Millenia.. jumpa my bro yg kerja kat Sembawang.. then jalan la gi Marina.. dah beli cookies sume.. *yg at last, kita tak makan pun* aku pun sound la yg lapar.. ingat makan kat cavana ke LJS aje la kan.. sekali dia ajak gi mana tau? Swensens la.. TQ baby.. terharu. coz, this is the 1st time i makan Swensen dgn dia.. ye la, selalu dia jugak yg suro budget but tadi.. hmm.. tak pe la.. had my Teriyaki Chicken pasta and his Breaded Chicken & ICE-CREAM AGAIN! hehe.. lantak la korang.. bayang kan la kita yg selekeh ni dine in kat restaurant.. tak glamour seh. but in the end kita fikir2 kan, next time makan aje kat tempat fav kita kat Bedok North block 501. lagi kenyang.. murah pun murah.. haha. but overall, i like it la.

see, everytime when we plan impromptu, selalu menjadi.. but kalau dah seminggu plan, alahai lengit aku cakap.. and hari ni aku declare yg aku BUANG DUIT!! AaArrGGhh!!

but neh mind, gaji is like..... how many days lagi eh?? *rolls eyes*

i love you my dear.. u light up my life.. and i want u to be with me always..

sealed with a kiss
9:45 AM

Sunday, April 16, 2006

i purposely put up this song as i am missing my friends.. AGAIN! seeing dila tagged me, i feel that i miss those times..

how time flies.. still remember during my primary & secondary school days, had a few sets of best friends.. ya, sets.. kira pandai la bahagi kasih sayang kat kawan2. here's the list la seingat aku..

my 1st ever best friend will be Nur Rasyidah Ibrahim.. coz she was in the same preschool as me, PKMS, which later i found out that hamza too was there. and i heart her so much for my parents said that she's pretty. kira kawan dgn org cantik, tempias la kecantikan nye.. tapi sayang seribu kali sayang.. *pouts* anihoos, sekejap aje la aku berkawan dgn dia. but still she never forgets to invite me to her engagement ceremony.. dah tunang kawan tu..

my 2nd will be Nur Fazilah Rosmin. for we were the monitress that time and always compete to be the best but again, i was defeated. *pouts* pandai jugak cuma kurang aje dr fazilah.. so, she chose to find other best friends.. hehe.. ok lor..

my 3rd, Zhahirah Salleh. hehe.. dia ni selalu dtg rumah sebelum gi skola.. haha! buat mcm rumah sendiri ek? hehe. ya, dia la satu2 nye kawan yg mak aku selalu bawak kan bekal.. haha! untung kau zhahirah..

my 4th will be Kartini Salim. pepagi selalu gi skola sama dia.. ni dah masuk secondary.. minat kat org pun sesama.. haha! tapi dia menang la kan.. sbb cantik.. aku kalau kawan dgn org cantik aje la. tapi aku tak cantik jugak.. banyak kenangan kita sesama kan.. dgn dia jugak banyak aku lepas kan geram.. selalu jugak bertekak dgn dek ni. selalu kalau weekend kelua sesama.. gi konsert pun sesama.. KRU la dulu2 tu. kita dulu panggil nama kita KarEasma.. sedap kan? mcm karisma.. hehe. until one day when she decided to take the mrt instead of bus.. ye la, dah pindah.. i think from there, kita dah renggang..

my 5th will be Nadiah Abd Razak. dgn dek ni giler sikit. mati tak nak.. haha! but sekejap aje la coz aku advance ke another level, dia stay.. cerita pasal dia akan bersambung..

my 6th will be Siti Fatimah Jaafar. haiz, yg ini banyak sgt kalau aku nak bercerita.. jadi malas.. haha!

my 7th. Dalila & Diana Jumaat. haiz, sayang betul kat diorg.. dgn diorg aje la aku bole balik sampai 2 pagi.. haha! dgn diorg la aku kalau travel gi kl. dgn diorg la selalu lepak buang duit kat cafe2. hehe. best.. cantik jugak diorg ni.. dgn diorg la selalu aku berbual pasal masa depan.. i miss you girls!!!

my 8th, beberapa org serentak.. Syahida Samad, Zakiah Abd Hamid, Zainab as-sughra, Firdaus Miswan and ntah lagi.. with this girls, aku ada group name. kita namakan diri kita Jebon.. haha! pasal kita la paling merepek sekali.. still keeping in touch with the girls..
dgn firdaus, hmmm.. no comment la.. dah hilang pun.. sbb aku yg meghilangkan diri dari dia.. if you're reading this bro, thanks for all the times we shared...

my 9th, Nur Aisyah Abdullah.. my joy and my sunshine in Maarif. always be the one giving me encouragement. always there to hear my dreams. always be the one who supports my dreams.. thanks dearie..

my 10th, Jenifer hung. haha! kawan time class CPT. selalu balik sesama kan Jen?? kau pandai ckap melayu kan Jen?? kau sayang aku kan Jen?? aku pun sayang kau.. kita gi gym sesama k Jen?? hehe.. we lost contact last yr, but contacy balik this yr..

my 11th, Nadiah Abd Razak again and Farhana Abd Rahman serentak.. kawan kerja ni.. and this is the ppl aku paling banyak membuat janji.. i simply love them...

with our friendship bands.. hehe. masih pakai seh.. ye la, kita masih muda pe...

lastly, i wanna make an announcement.. I MISS MY BEST FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!! aLL OF THEM!!!!!! *crying*

sealed with a kiss
11:40 AM

Once upon a time there was a tavern

Where we used to raise a glass or two

Remember how we laughed away the hours

And dreamed of all the great things we would do

Those were the days my friend

We thought they'd never end

We'd sing and dance forever and a day

We'd live the life we choose

We'd fight and never lose

For we were young and sure to have our way

.La la la la...

Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Then the busy years went rushing by us

We lost our starry notions on the way

If by chance I'd see you in the tavern

We'd smile at one another and we'd say

Those were the days my friend

We thought they'd never end

We'd sing and dance forever and a day

We'd live the life we choose

We'd fight and never lose

For we were young and sure to have our way.

La la la la...

Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Just tonight I stood before the tavern

Nothing seemed the way it used to be

In the glass I saw a strange reflection

Was that lonely woman really me

Those were the days my friend

We thought they'd never end

We'd sing and dance forever and a day

We'd live the life we choose

We'd fight and never lose

For we were young and sure to have our way.

La la la la...

Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Through the door there came familiar laughter

I saw your face and heard you call my name

Oh my friend we're older but no wiser

For in our hearts the dreams are still the same

Those were the days my friend

We thought they'd never end

We'd sing and dance forever and a day

We'd live the life we choose

We'd fight and never lose

For we were young and sure to have our way.

La la la la...

Those were the days, oh yes, those were the days

sealed with a kiss
10:09 AM

Saturday, April 15, 2006

woke up early in the morning just now, breathe the early morning breeze... and made the decision to... prepare breakfast for the family.. yes, you hear me right, this lazybum actually prepared breakfast for the family..

menu: ala simple aje.. what ppl eat for breakfast la.. bread with mashed boiled egg add with a little bit of mayonnaise and pepper topped it up with chilli sauce and toast it! haha! bangga aku coz i know most of my friends still not awake yet..

clean up the house with mama dearest when the guys went out for friday prayers. and guess what? i learn cooking again! not that i've never cooked before but dah kembali la nak masak memasak ni..

so what's the menu?

sup ayam ala soto.. bergedil and sayur goreng.. sedap kan? kan? hujan2 hirup sup, alahai, terangkat.. and aku dah tau buat sambal soto.. haha! bole kalahkan Hajah Maimunah restaurant saya cakap dgn awak.. haha!

then, dah kul 5 ptg, hujan pun dah stop, guess apa pulak aku buat? gi JOGGING!
yes again, you hear me right.. i gi jogging you.. from my house to bedok reservoir park dah start jogging.. then kat park, i round the whole bedok reservoir park.. fuh! sorang2 tu.. best sgt.

i feel that i fill up my holiday well today.. and next week, i'll be in the gym with Jenny!! yeahness!!!!! Jen!! i'll meet you again.. and we make it our weekly schedule.. tak sabar seh..

Iza on the way to a healthy living lifestyle.. Yipppeee!!!!

i'm missing him..

sealed with a kiss
2:48 PM

Thursday, April 13, 2006

double yippee for me!! one, got to meet him after.......... 4 days? hehe.. so happy!
i did something silly.. khekhe.. bought him 2 bars of Milo bar chocolate and i actually tied it up with ribbon and nicely done.. haha! but too bad, that guy does not seem appreciative enough after all the hussle. *pouts* hehe, but neh mind, he smiled looking at me.. and that smiles wash away all my pain.. woohoo!

2ndly, he bought for me an mp3!! yeahness!! went to mustafa center to survey but end up, we buy it. i was contemplating whether to take creative or samsung.. both models were good.. one is Creative muuvo and the other samsung yada yada yada.. the functions is the same. both got surround system. both got fm radio. both is lightweight. but what creative lack is the OGG format which don't support conversion of songs. and samsung is more user-friendly.. so ya, i took samsung.. * but b, i nak yg 1 gb nye* but neh mind.. i still love you for this.. yg penting ada nama eh b?? hehe.. beratus jugak you habis kan. hehe.

and we just slack around munching on the junkies. hehe.. i soo loving today.. apa seh berbual..

geez, that's all la. charging my mp3.. woohoo!

sealed with a kiss
11:19 AM

Monday, April 10, 2006

Friends Forever..

sealed with a kiss
1:25 AM

Sunday, April 09, 2006

currently this song is stuck in my mind.. asal eh? and also i loike so much this group. GIGI!!!! gw keren banget dgn kamu!! haha! their song is sooooo... pleasant. hehe.. very soulful to the ears. lagi2 album Repackage-Raihlah Kemenangan. ya, i know, i'm back dated for their album was out last Ramadhan. but still, i love!

this song sebenarnya, lagu qasidah oleh sebuah kumpulan nasyid.. but GIGI have it modernised to suit the listeners pleasures. ewah! dah buat research makanye pasal lagu ni.. menunjukkan betapa serius nya aku ttg lagu ni..

yes, at the moment, we need so much - PEACE!

all around the world, they are having elections here & there. and news have it round that there'll be demonstrations everywhere.. so ya, what we need is WORLD PEACE!

not only for the elections, but those with their own problems too. stop the catfight and just have peace ya.

enjoy the song..and lastly - Peace be Upon You..
tengok, islam mmg dah menerapkan unsur2 kesejahteraan dlm tiap diri manusia. sbb itu tiap kali kita jumpa saudara sesama muslim, di sunatkan memberi salam dan wajib utk kita jawab salam..utk sama-sama menikmati kesejahteraan di dunia & akhirat. betapa indahnya Islam..

sealed with a kiss
11:11 AM

Friday, April 07, 2006

today is the last day Nadiah being my colleague. she's leaving us & the children.. i feel damn so sad.. just imagine, for three years she has been my lunch partner. we have been together through ups & downs. she have seen me crying.. i'll confide in her everytime i need a shoulder to cry on. and now? she's leaving?? damn!!! not forgetting the 10 years that i've been with her in school. i've seen her like half of my life. in & out, daily.. she's there. but not anymore.. Nadiah, why must you go???

and just now, we had a girls out to the mall. just to kill time together with Nana.. and bought lotsa things together. to show our friendship.. hope that it really lasts.
coz i really love them.. love as in sister lup.

Nadiah & Nana.. heart you girls so much.

circle of friends.. why circle? coz it has no ends..

looking great chilling outz.

lastly girls, i do really hope that we won't let our friendship go to waste for i treasure it a lot!

And Nadiah, do take care ya.. missing you already..

sealed with a kiss
1:39 PM

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

tadi hujan kan?? lebat kan?? seram kan?? but best tadi dpt mandi hujan.. bukan sengaja.. but to shelter the chn from the rain.. basah kuyup gue. tak ada maaf sia. i'm totally wet. biar aku basah, jgn anak2 aku. hmm..

got interesting facts abt lightning just now.. bagi aku interesting la, but to some mungkin dah tau.. to know if the lightning is near us or not, when you see a lightning, count 1 to ++ la.. for example, when i see a lightning, i count, 1,2,3 then comes the thunder, then it shows that the lighning is just 3 km from me.

but just now, tak sempat kira, dah ada thunder and the bunyi was so the frightening. budak2 nangis serentak.. kesian. and my mdm says that the lighning is just above us yg memegang payung.. Alhamdulillah that nothing happens to any of us.

then around 630, dah kelua kerja.. gi laypark.. nak tau kat mana? kedai kopi depan kerja jugak.. hehe. kelakar seh. situ jugak kita nak duduk. sampai hampir kul 9 kat situ.. org suro balik tak mau tau. hehe.. best berbual with the besties..

and tomorrow ada excursion to Yakult factory. best kan? dpt yakult free. hehe. apa je.. and now, kepala gue dah fening la.. mana tak.. bermandi hujan.. nak aje gue mc.

haiz...

sealed with a kiss
12:20 PM

Monday, April 03, 2006

met baby dearest.. at last! windu seh dgn dia.. aniwei, just now, went to a jemputan i-dunno-who la tapi.. but the deco, nice giler.. theme black & white. like so modern like that.. ye la, some of the malays kan got restriction on colours during big day.. but just now, the deco so the vogue-n-the-vass.. got the feeling it's expensive. with the chandelier hanging and on each pillar ( covered with black & white cloth ) ada lampu lagi.. so overall mcm vogue, gothic gitu.. suka akak!

then balik ke rumah abg hammad, laypark kat situ.. karaoke. sampai hujan lebat! kalau org2 east rasa tadi hujan dia mcm extra, sbb tadi banyak katak menyanyi.. termasuk akak jugak.. haha!

and sbg penutup, kita satisfy our taste bud with pizza and lots of pizza. our baby MJ nak makan,so kongsi2 beli pizza. cute kan..

and next week kita ada jemputan lagi, and bulan depan our Mail MJ & Aliyah MJ pulak kahwin.. tak sabar adik.. adik la pulak.. hehe..

kk, saya dah penat.. besok2 berbual k..

adios berambus..

sealed with a kiss
11:01 AM

Sunday, April 02, 2006

assalamualaikum..

alhamdulillah, today's events ended up well. i made it to both of the venues.

1st stop after my class in Bugis, took the train with kak ema & tchr halimah to woodlands to attend one of our colleagues wedding. all the way in the MRT, we made plans of leaving the workplace. haha! dgr2 la kan, bulan 7 ni habis course, kalau betul, alangkah indah dunia..

aniwei, SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU NURANI & LAILI. semoga jodoh kekal hingga ke anak cucu & selamanya ke Syurga.. Amiiin.

here's a pic yg kita sempat amek bersama pengantin..

biasa la aku mesti nak amek sebelah pengantin, amek berkat.. Amiin.

2nd stop, Syahida's house. best jumpa kawan lama.. we catch up a lot with each other. on the way there, tali kasut aku terputus.. aduh, saliha betul la.. tak glam seh.. aniwei, tak menyalahkan sesiapa, aku aje yg ganas gak nye..

dia pindah rumah tak jauh dari rumah lama dia, jalan kaki je.. hehe. kelakar seh. overall, we had fun cherishing our moments..

ni pulak gambar2 yg ada..

me with zakiah & syahida.. kawan lama..

me with Syahida.. heart her alot.. sayang dia..
me with zakiah.. apa nak jadi dhn pompan ni.. hehe.

itu aje la yg aku dpt cakap.. best hari ni.. kalau ada abang lagi best.. tak pe, besok kita jumpa.. tak sabar seh..

sealed with a kiss
1:40 PM

Saturday, April 01, 2006

holla peeps. feeling groovy with this song.. i'm in high spirit. happy banget.. BUT! i dunno how to say tis eh, i'm still perplexed. yes, that's the word. i abhor this feeling so much!

y must always i be the victim? of EVERYTHING? y must i be the one having to endure EVERYTHING? y must i be always be the one who ppl find fault with? haiz.

i need space to breath too. i deserve it right? i know, i can. but WHERE & WHEN??

i read some motivational thoughts. y must we wait for happiness to come? that is why, i always make myself happy. laugh at my own silly jokes. gawk at my own face. proud of myself. I DUN NEED ANYBODY! but i still need him. that's my weakness.

i just need, ppl, i need space. i want to be free. let me out of my cage. let me be myself........

sealed with a kiss
2:11 PM