Different faces of me

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

30th already yet still no pay?? whoa!! ni dah melampau ni.. then you think, i'm going to be happy tomorrow for the celebration?? jeez, forget it man.

ada hati nak suro org beli hadiah, ada exchange2 konon.. nak kutip duit kat ne?? think gaji tu pocket money kita eh ah?? kita pun ada tanggungjawab la eh. tak kan dah kerja nak makan hasil mak bapak lagi. aku pun tau malu la...

step berbual dgn aku, mcm yeye.. "you are an adult, so make decision like an adult, professionally". hey, kalau nak aku gitu bole ah.. PAY ME AS AN ADULT AND PAY ME PROFESSIONALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!

mana ada tempat kerja lain mcm gini sia.. dah la tu, kalau besok tak ada duit apa aku nak balik dari jb berenang huh? balik jalan kaki??

hey, maybe should do this.. kalau still no pay tomorrow, i will give the event a miss. furthermore, my mc still on, can escape sia.

geram betul la..

sealed with a kiss
2:35 PM

ANNIE BUDDY ? ANNIE WAN ? NOE WAN ? SUM BUDDY ?

Lee Sum Wan: Hello can i speak to Annie Wan?

Mr Sori : Yes u could speak to me.

Lee Sum Wan: No, i want to speak to Annie Wan!

Mr Sori: You are talking to someone! Who is this?

Lee Sum Wan: Im Sum Wan. And i need to talk to Annie Wan! Its urgent.

Mr Sori: I know u are someone and u want to talk to anyone! But whats this urgent matter about?

Lee Sum Wan: Well just tell my sister Annie Wan that our brother was involved in an accident. Noe Wan got injured and now Noe Wan is being sent to the hospital. Right now Avery Wan is going to the hospital.

Mr Sori: Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital from the accident that isnt an urgent matter! You may find this hilarious but i dont have time for this!!!

Lee Sum Wan: You are rude. Who are you?

Mr Sori: Im Sori.

Lee Sum Wan: You should be sorry. Now give me your name!

Mr Sori: Im Sori!!

Lee Sum Wan: I dont like your tone of voice Mr and i dont care, give me your name!

Mr Sori: Look lady, I told you already Im Sori! Im Sori!! Im SORI!!! you didnt even give me your name!

Lee Sum Wan: I told u before Im Sum Wan! Sum Wan!!! You better be careful my father is Sum Buddy. And my uncle holds a very big position in the company. He is Noe Buddy.

Mr Sori: Oh Im so scared (sarcastically). Look i dont care about ur uncle he's a nobody. Everybody thinks his top dog and holding an important position in the company.

Lee Sum Wan: No Avery Buddy just married my aunt. And Avery Buddy doesn't work there.

Mr Sori: Like i said i dont care which one of ur aunt screws everybody and i also know that not everybody works here! Jeez!!!

Lee Sum Wan: Wheech Wan is my sis!

Mr. Sori: I dont know which one is ur sis! Why in gods name u think i do!? Look i got work to do and if im feeling mischievious i'll broadcast it on the P.A system saying. "Attention, someone called and said that anyones brother just got involved in an accident. But not to worry no one got injured and no one was sent to the hospital. But everyone is going to the hospital anyways. The father maybe a somebody but if u're their uncle, u're a nobody. "how bout that!?

Toot....Toot....Toot................. (hang up)

sealed with a kiss
1:45 AM

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

went to my workplace just now to practice on the dance steps.. hehe.. they asked me to stay at home at least for another day. yahoo!! so tomorrow, i'll still be on my mc!!

then went to liesa's house to try out the baju yg mak nye jahit. ok, it turns out nice. but a minor alteration is needed. coz before i fell sick, i was bloated. now when her mum measures my butt, it shrinks few cm. wow! an achievement. hehe.. so, ya, have to wait for the baju.

this year's tchrs day will be held on a stationary ship @ Danga Bay, Johore. it sounds grand and all the tchrs were excited about it. but what brings the mood down is that the event will start only at 8 pm. what the? 8 pm and furthermore @ johore? phew, i'm not at all excited. reason being when i'm in my homeland i can't stay out late and for this, i have to go back late.. no no, it's totally a bad idea. maybe it's only to me, cuz the others seems to be okay with it coz the next day is our off day. so? doesn't mean we should go all out partying. and tell you what? i'm not in a party mood nor do i like to party. night life is totally un-me!
so, have to think of any way to change the itineary.. but who am i afterall ya?

dearie fetched me from liesa's house & we had a slow talk about our future. i started it first.

i am happy to see my fellow MJs tying the knot of marriage, engagement and trust me, i do feel happy. but somehow i cannot deny the feeling of insecurity here..
hammad & ayu is definitely married. alia & mail will be a lawfully husband & wife next year, insya Allah. both shahrul & dee + romi & liz will tying the knot on 2008 respectively. for ammar & an, it will be unsuprising if we gonna heard if they going to settle down within this few years. well me & hamza? we still have a looooong way to go.

here is the part. i am known in the MJ as miss cinderella. coz i must be back home before the clock strikes 11. ya, an hour earlier from cinderella. and i will have to miss any event that includes staying over, overnight, going to another country for holiday and so on.. my family is very conservative about this. anything that includes guys definitely got the red light from them.

so from here, i told hamza to stay calm and don't he ever feel insecurity and feel that why the other couples can stay for a long time together and why not us. i advise him to stay focus and jgn cepat melenting kalau2 iza tak dapat spend the night together. satu, memang tak manis kalau org tengok and kita masih belum ada ikatan apa2 lagi. lagi satu faktor umur iza.. i'm still young for all this. ya, young in the eyes of my parents. so, sayang, iza harap you faham kedudukan iza..

even kalau i tak dapat sama2 dgn you, you will always have my support. i feel sad to selalu tinggal kan you kalau kita ada outing MJ. but what to do sayang.. i know you ada feel a lil bit jealousy in you to see them cuddle up together dlm kesejukan malam. i'm so sorry that you have to tahan dgn iza.. i want the best of both parties. you & my parents..

maybe after i reached 21, they could give me leniency towards all this. that is 2 years from now. but still i can't promise anything.. thankyou for your understanding sayang..

you have to put up everything about me. i have my restrictions. but if you think on the positive side, wouldn't it make our relationship lebih diberkati?

i know influence from people is greatly high out there.. peer pressure is definitely on the high end. i love you and loving you is not only physically but also from my inner self.
do you know that this heart is calling out for your name every min, every second?

do you know this heart is always longing to see your lovely face?

do you know that this heart is always caring for you no matter where you are?

do you know that this heart is always longing to be in the comfort and feel the warmth of your arms?

do you realize how deep is my love towards you?

i wouldn't want my love to turns out as lust. but have to put up with it sayang, both of us is too young to commit anything serious. and just now, you said that you are pressured by this. do not worry, i am not asking you to propose to me.. we are not ready for the big thing yet sayang..

just if anything comes along, be prepared for me of not being able to spend it with you.. if you cannot tahan with it, i am ready to make the big "sacrifice". but i do really hope that everything and our sail in this relationship will be a smooth journey towards eternity..

I LOVE YOU SAYANG!! i really do.. can anyone help to pass this message across to him and make him realize that i really love him and i can't live without him??

O ALLAH, please bless our relationship and make us strong enough to go through the obstacles in life O Almighthy.. AMIN..

sealed with a kiss
1:45 PM

Monday, August 29, 2005

well well well.. niari aku jadi kakak yg baik, anak yg baik, adik yg baik & yg baik2 semua dimenangi oleh aku la..

list buat baik hari ni....

pagi2 bangun, gosok kan baju ayah nak gi maulid..

then kemas rumah, cuci pinggan mangkuk sume..

pergi ntuc beli barang2 dapur..

main bola dgn adik kat bawah blok..

gosok kan baju mama pulak dia nak gi tengok show komedi tu..

jaga adik sbb mama dgn ayah kelua..

ayah balik, siap kan dia makan..

copy kan barang utk dia..

hamza sms kata nak jumpa..

turun bawah jumpa sekejap terus naik..

i mean betul nye sekejap, 15 minit aje.. apa steam seh.. kira jadi matair baik jugak la ni.

hmm.. baca buku, baring2 tengok tv, itu aje la aktiviti hari ni...

nak tau apa aku buat jahat pulak??

dlm hati menyumpah aje tak dapat kelua jalan..

dlm hati menyumpah seranah kat tempat kerja coz gaji belum masuk..

dlm hati menyumpah maut nye dgn adik pasal dia aku kene marah..

kebanyakan nye jahat dalaman ah.. luaran gua angel beb.. hehe..

okie.. apa eh nak blog lagi... banyak edit2 barang kat blog ni la.. oh ye, tadi menyirap2 coz shoutbox yg aku pakai dulu, dah tak leh pakai.. terpaksa pakai yg ini.. jadi, jgn lupa tag ok!!

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...................

nak manja2 dgn hamza... rindu tau tak dapat manja2 dgn dia.... skrg pun dah jarang kita rapat.. uih, apa pulak tulis kat sini cerita belakang tabir..

TAK ROCK LA SISTER!! hehe.. k la, gua ciow dulu.. adios amigos chicas chicos berambus!!!

sealed with a kiss
1:45 PM

Sunday, August 28, 2005

practically just came back from our fellow MJ's engagement ceremony.. it was held at Ang Mo Kio, the girl's side. alah.. girl dia pun, Liz jugak. member kita jugak.. i started my day early with hamza. at noon, kita dah jumpa. he wanted to buy contact lens, apparently, tak jadi pulak.. dah bergaduh. aku tak tengok muka dia, dia tak tengok muka aku.. gasak la..

then we proceed to rumah abg hammad, dok kejap then jalan. niari tak ada org lambat la.. power2. hehe...

from hammad's house, abg hammad & kak ayu, aku &amp;amp; hamza, ayub, an & zul, kita naik kereta.. dok belakang alamak eh, parah aku & kak ayu..

dee & shahrul not forgetting ammar rode their blackbird. kencang beb.. but where's mail & alia?? oh.. they will meet us at the venue itself.

off we went, it all went smoothly not until at PIE where we were held for a while coz of the traffic jam.. kak ayu kept asking where's ammar & shahrul's bike.. aku pun alah.. diorg kat belakang la tu..

tup2, ammar datang sebelah, ada motor R1 collide with a kereta. fuh! accident tu.. kereta kita dah lepas then the collision happen. nasib aku tak nampak, kot nanti phobia datang balik.. Shahrul being a TP himself, stop his bike and help out for a while. kudos bro!

not long after that, kita pun jumpa balik sume.. sampai kat ang mo kio, mail & alia dah sampai.. hey, it's a full strength today!! YEAH!! all my family gets back together!! cuma wan la tak ada coz dia yg bertunang..

sampai, ada upacara tahlil.. then rombongan lelaki pun sampai. cebah, sekali 3 vidoecam kita shoot. campur lagi dgn camera2 yg ada.. aku pun amek sekali. cuma belum load.. nanti2 la ye.. tunggu gambar2 nye.. syiok!!

the food there are superb!! sedap2 belaka. cuma aku tak makan banyak, coz takut2 lagi nak makan apa2. but i can taste that all of it was fabulous!

dah habis sume, kita pun berangkat balik ke rumah hammad...
(ps: this time still i'm not in talking terms with hamza)
this time round abg hammad yg drive. dia drive laju la.. seram la pulak kan.. paling best kat car park ah. .mcm roller coaster kita dibuatnye.. best ah!! abg hammad nak lagi!!

then sampai atas, kita pun lepak la kan.. penat beb. then i continue to do abg hammad's blog, apparently i got so confused till dee have to take over from me.. not bad eh? pink karer.. hey, check out his blog from my link on MJ Max Kuachi. ceh, promote kape??

aku pun berkaraoke di luar.. haha!! dengar korang suara iza yg mcm katak ni.. hehe.. berlawan dgn alia, an, mail, ammar & hamza himself.. aku buat selamba aje nyanyi.. tgh geram ni! peduli apa, lepas kan tensyen dgn nyanyi.. haha!!

then tiba masa aku nak kene balik, so he did sent me home. and i thank you for that. aku balik, mak bapak aku pun balik.. cantik la kan. weewit!
lampu depan dia plak blow. dah jalan kene pelan2..

once again, SELAMAT BERTUNANG ABANG WAN & LIZ!! SEMOGA KEKAL KE JINJANG PELAMIN!!

and now, i'm right infront of my pc blogging away.. i miss my bedroom!! haha!!

anyway, Sayang, iza tak tau apa kene dgn you hari ni.. but whatever it is,
I STILL LOVE YOU!!!!

(notice the lady's jacket in the clip video?? this is one of my fav song.. her jacket is similar with mine in my main pic.. maybe i should withdraw myself from becoming a teacher and starts off a new career as a singer/model instead.. haha!! fat hope!)

sealed with a kiss
2:20 PM

Friday, August 26, 2005

cannot think of any title.. hehe..before i forgets, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABG EAS & KAK DIDIE!! today is my 4th day of MC. 6 more days to go.. but i'm dying to go back to work by monday..

i just miss my classroom,
i miss the bingit2,
i miss the kene marah,
i miss the training with my fellow colleagues,
i miss kacau2 ANA,
i miss maisarah,
i miss Arash,
i miss the route to work,
i miss having lunch with my friends,
i miss talking to the parents,
i miss lukman,
i miss talking to the chn,
i miss having a sakit hati at Liesa,
i miss geram2 looking at other people (??)
i miss briefing time,
i miss checking the chn's hands & mouth,
i miss going to the MM room,
i miss being late to work,
i miss Cik Nab's Barley,
i miss Cik Nab's porridge,
i miss Mdm being upset with me,
i miss looking at Cik Omar's smile,
i miss the decoration at school,
i miss the pakcik town council ( tak ada gambar best2 lagi ke?)
i miss drinking my F&N Orange,
i miss taking the bus home,
i miss being fetch by Hamza,
i miss dressing up for work,
i miss wearing the same attire to work with MAGGI,
i miss doing outdoor with the chn,
i miss being rush to do work,
i miss being satisfied after everything settled,
i miss everyone's smiles when i cracked joke,
i miss Ayun's laugh,
i miss diana's SS,
i miss Ain's bus,
i miss Tchr Halimah's tudung,
i miss Amalina's high heels,
i miss Tchr Aini's wahid,
i miss Bia's words,
i miss Ros' selamba-ness,
i miss Nadiah!!,
i miss seeing aini writing the briefing book,
i miss cik salamah's fragrant,
i miss the air con,
i miss the communication book,
i miss the noise of Riso,
i miss bringing the chn to the theme board
i miss bringing the chn to the learning studio,
i miss menyirap2 at maisarah,
i miss hiding the chocolate from her,
i miss going to the loo,
i miss Hamza calling me at work,
i miss keeping keropok bika in my class,
i miss being proud of my class,
i miss the chn kisses,
i miss being always have to do other ppl's job,
i miss being tired,
i miss having a geram feeling towards the ppl,
i miss the aunties in NTUC,
i miss the lined school buses,
i miss joking around with the drivers,
i miss doing my routine job,
i miss mengelat kerja,
i miss being lazy to wake up for work,
i miss maki the bus for coming late,
i miss running to work,
i miss the fear if my make up ruined,
HEY, I JUST MISS EVERYTHING!!!!

pray for me that i can resume work by Monday.. Hopefully gaji dah masuk, lagi2 aku nak gi kerja..

but nothing beats MISSING AT MY HUNNY BUNNY, SYED HAMZA!!

I SIMPLY LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!!

sealed with a kiss
1:45 PM

Thursday, August 25, 2005

back again today.. went for a walk with mama just now. to Bedok Giant.. haha. jauh tu aku dah leh jalan.. all the way, aku jalan tunduk aje.. malu la pulak.. . hehe.. bought for si abg tua tu birthday cake. 2 moro he'll be turning 25. quarter of century already. haha!! tak kahwin2 lagi.. susah2 kahwin aje la dgn si misi tu bang.. mama beli kan aku pizza. wee.. sedap! but still waiting for Baby's treat. He promised after i recover, he'll treat me to Pizza. tak sangka that an outing with your mum could be so much fun!! yeah, everything ditanggung beres.. she paid everything even topping up my ezlink.. SAYANG MAMA!!! but i really do love her ya know. she belanja me Manja too.. this edition, comes with a bag. COOL!! i simply lurve collecting bags..

not forgetting shoes. anybody on for a shopping trip for shoe?? next in my collection of shoes will be... let me think, a high-cut sneaker from Converse maybe?? ehem, anyone to treat me?? hehe...

okay, so later tonight, gonna have a suprise for my big tua brother. hope he like it. coz dis year, you have 2 cakes you know.. Ayah also bought you one. see, everyone sayang kau, kau je eksyen dgn kitaorg. suka tak suka, malam ni tetap telefon dlm bilik aku, rutin utk aku call matair ok!

eeee!!! geram la, skrg ni dah tak gatal dgn chicken pox tau. tapi gatal dgn gigitan nyamuk pulak.. sibuk sekali...

okla, last but not least.. SAYANG, IZA SAYANG KAN ABANG!!!!

sealed with a kiss
12:50 PM

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

okay..okay.. i'm being one confused girl..1st, i'm angry at him, 2nd, i'm deeply more in love with him..

he came down to meet me just now. ya, how happy i am to see him after this few days. he took the night shift yesterday just to get a half day today so he could come and see me.. Sayang, you're so sweeet!!

indeed, apart from the antibiotic that i have to take, he's one medicine that i need the most. more than any drugs that any sick people would need. he's like my sunshine who lights up my life just now..

baby.... i love you!!

sealed with a kiss
11:45 AM

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

first day of my mc.. gosh, feeling so bored right now.. miss my children.. kikiel, jebraeel how are you today?? didn't get to kiss you boys.

couldn't sleep all night due to the itchiness.. alamak eh, menyirap aje.. tunggu kul 8, sarapan, makan obat, gatal dia makin menjadi2.. geram la..

Ya Allah, kurangkan la keperitan yg ku alami ni..

a huge thanks to my MAMA kerana jaga iza.. aku kalau dah sakit, manja nye semacam.. nasib dia sabar aje.. sapu kan obat, masak kan lauk favourite, lauk pindang serani, yummy!! be there to comfort me.. cari resources mcm mana nak kurangkan gatal, now she's meeting her friend to get a daun.. tak tau apa tapi utk chicken pox. beli kan air kelapa atas nasihat abg hammad & kak ayu, aku pulak minta dia beli kan cornflakes. nak buat honey cornflakes. haha, org sakit yg tak betul.

masuk ni dah 3 hari aku tak tido, my eye bag are getting from bad to worse. now nak nap pun tak bleh, nak kene jaga timing makan obat. satu hari, 5 kali kene makan obat..

missing my hamza so much, yesterday, he went to mcritchie with his friends. he sounded so happy! glad to hear that from him. rasanye ada hikmah yg aku sakit, so dia bleh kelua dgn kawan2 dia and do things yg selama ni dia tak dapat buat. sedih memang ada, sbb our anniversary kita gaduh, aku jatuh sakit pasal tu, he pun sakit, but tup2 enjoy rupa nye kat luar.. bagusla sayang.. asal kan abang happy, iza tak halang apa2.

hope i won't miss the teacher' s day celebration. tempah baju makanye.. hehe..

sealed with a kiss
5:10 AM

Monday, August 22, 2005

today was suppose to be a meaningful event for both hamza & me.. but end up, it was filled with loads of tears running down my cheek and dashed all my dreams..

one year past, you asked for my hand and made me promise to stay truthful..
one year past, i started to build castle in the air and dreamt all the things that we should do together...
one year past, i was trying to win your heart by that somebody..
now a year after, who is the one not being truthful?
now a year after, all my dreams were smashed in the sky..
now one year after, you are still defending her instead of me...

thank you so much for the hurtful gift, i am sure i will remember it.
thank you so much for breaking my heart, i will mend it back alone without anyone noticing it.
thank you so much for the words that you spurted out to me, i am sure it will be a distressful music to my ears.
thank you so much for making me realize that good looks does play a huge part in relationship.
but one thing you should remember, good looks sooner or later will fade away, but a heart of love and care will definitely stays.

To my heart, Syed Hamza..
i will take what happened between us as a lesson for me to improve myself in our relationship.. there is still a long way to go for both of us. but i will always pray that no matter what comes between us, i will fight for it. coz i know, you are mine and i am yours..
i will continue loving you as always but for now, i will have to build back all the shattered dreams.. are you going to be with me Darling? together we man this boat of relationship...

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!

sealed with a kiss
11:06 AM

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Message For Everyone
A young man was getting ready to graduate college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted.
As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation his father called him into his private study.His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautiful wrapped gift box.
Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Holy Qur'an.Angrily, he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money you give me a Holy Qur'an?" and stormed out of the house, leaving theholy book. He never contacted his father again for long long time.
Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day .
Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care things. When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart.
He began to search his father's important papers and saw the still new Holy Qur'an, just as he had left it years ago.With tears, he opened the Holy Qur'an and began to turn the pages. As he read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope taped behind theHoly Qur'an.
It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the sportscar he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the wordsPAID IN FULL.
How many times do we miss GOD blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?If this touched your heart, please pass it on, does not matter what religion you belong to...
the message is for everyone.A servant of ALLAH Every night brings a new dayALLAH alleviates all pain Everything has its end.ALLAH is enough for me

sealed with a kiss
11:46 AM

Sunday, August 14, 2005

hey ya people.. back again.. feeling shitty this few days. probs here & there.. top on the list RELATIONSHIP!! yeah, my relationship is like a roller coaster nowadays. haiz.. feel so down the longkang sey..

i dun really have much choice when comes in relationship... bole kira dgn jari seh.. let me recap the guys that have been in my life b4..

my first crush... "A"..

far way back when i was in P5.. bebudak lagi.. in Alsagoff.. had this huge crush on this "A" from the neighbouring madrasah. tau2 je la kan.. this "a" is from a well-to-do family.. tinggal kat condo.. al-faham, org kaya la kan.. pandai pulak tu.. had this crush for 4 bloody years. when in sec 2, terserempak kat camp anjuran salah sebuah masjid, he asked 4 my no.. alamak eh, gamat kejap.. best giler. tapi aku nye "pandai", dah dapat no., aku tak nak contact dia.. sbb malu. lagipun, mak bapak aku tak encourage sgt benda2 gini.. furthermore, dia dah ada gf kau. dah terbengkalai gitu aje.. boring seh.. 4 tahun aku tunggu tau!! haiya.. dah habis riwayat.. dengar2 dia dah kahwin..

lepas tu, ada jugak la mamat2 yg nak kenal2 dgn aku.. but i tolak dgn baik.. coz, sedar diri ini, tak cantik.. then takut diri ini dipermainkan.. and think that i still have the crush to "a" that time...

my 2nd.. "Z"

this guy tersalah msg org, dari situ kita berkenalan.. think when i'm in sec 3. he's from ite yishun.. fuh, jauh nye.. but living in eunos. he shared a lot of prob with me, and we kinda close. sampai satu period, he pindah.. then we lost contact. suddenly, he call balik.. wow!! happy sekali.. start balik call malam2.. haha. pagi2 i will be his alarm clock. kejut kan dia bangun.. alala, konon manja la tak leh bangun sendiri.. dia amek license motor, he promised that i will be his 1st pillion. but hajat tu tak kesampaian, hampir satu tahun kita "sama2", i dun noe what's my feeling that time though he dah develop something special towards me.. but kita tak continue 2gether atas halangan mak bapak ku. hehe.. it's ok.

last nampak dia kat bazaar geylang last year. right infront of me & hamza..

during this time pun ada la kengkawan nye matair nak berkawan dgn aku, gitu aku suka. pasal bole berbual relax.. kira members ah dgn aku..

antaranye: "F", "H" & "R". ini 3 kawan, gerek giler..

"F".. ( is this my 3rd? )

my kawan, my bro and my tempat mengadu.. he's from ite tamp. shared lotsa things 2gether. makan minum bersama. selalu kongsi masalah pasal matair.. kesian aku tengok.. best berbual dgn dia.. sbb sanggup dia call aku pakai hp dia.. semata2 nak dengar suara aku.. kelakar la kau ni.. hmm, from sec 3 to last year kita rapat as kawan. terus aku cakap dgn dia..

"f", kau tau aku pernah cakap kat kau yg sekiranya aku ada matair, aku tak nak ada kawan lelaki lain kan.. sbb aku tak nak matair aku fikir buruk kalau kita kawan. kau dgn aku rapat, aku tak nak sekali2 lukakan hati matair aku, walaupun aku baru dgn dia.. (that time baru seminggu matair dgn hamza ) tapi aku nak cuba jadi matair setia.. thanks bro sbb selalu bersama aku all this while.. tak kan aku lupa jasa baik kau terhadap aku.. bye..

gitu la berakhir nya sebuah persahabatan yg sejati.. hmm.. sedih seh. dia pun ada lesen motor, jugak janji yg aku will be the 1st pillion, tapi hajat dia tak kesampaian sbb aku dah jumpa hamza.. thanks once again bro! last nampak dia kat mc tamp last month.

"R" ( is this my 4th )

ex kawan aku, minta aku tolong dlm relationship dia jugak. haiz, counsellor rupa nye dulu.. hencem mamat ni.. hehe. he's from ite then in police force. that time aku kat maarif repeat sec 4. he called and we talked a lot. he ni pandai buat kelakar.. romantis pun ada.. terpaut kejap. haha!! pernah sekali 2 kelua jalan dgn dia.. quite fun. paling tak leh lupa, when he bersungguh2 nak datang rumah aku dgn "H". tapi everytime kene reject aje sbb aku kerja.. kesian kau. haha!! like everyday we talked on the phone. i will always be his companion kalau dia nak gi kerja.. will only put down the phone kalau tau yg dia dah selamat dlm kerja.. we end the friendship in a wink.. tak tau bila.

dah ada matair dah.. bagusla.. harap2 berkekalan ok.

my 3rd... ( or is this my 5th )

known this shit when i'm in sec 4, maarif. during that time we went to kl to watch APM.. a good-looking guy, model. 1 whole damn year stuck with him.. and i say, this guy suck!! I HATE YOU!!!!!!!! permainkan hati aku!! HATI AKU KAU DAH LUKAKAN, DUIT AKU DAH KIKIS.. JANTAN SIAL!! MUKA HENSEM HATI BUSUK! KAUDU, BINATANG!! I HATE YOU!! MATI LA KAU!! AKU TAK NAK CERITA PASAL KAU!! CUMA AKU TAU KAU GAY!! CELAKA..
tak ke menggeramkan, dah la dia buat aku suka kan dia, end up tau dia gay!! sialan!!

my 4th.. "A" again.. ( or is this my 6th )

dikenalkan dari tchr aini, tahun lepas.. sekolah tak tau.. cuma aku tau dia engineer. wow!! muka ala2 Marcell. berbual melalui sms aje.. a very hardworking guy.. selalu complain pasal kerja dia. and i made him quit. hehe.. he dapat kerja kat tamp. he said, he tukar kerja just to be near me.. jadi bole jumpa utk lunch. bull shit je.. aku dah tak contact sejak ada hamza. then pass this guy to my best fren, Nadiah..

my 5th.. HAMZA.. ( or is this my 7th definitely my LAST!! )

last year during Arab Festival @ Arab st. had this belly dancing night. so decided with Nadiah to go and check it out. at the same time, mana tau dapat mamat arab pulak. that time, actually aku tak suka sekali dgn org arab. haha! dari zaman skola seh. Nadiah selalu pesan kat aku, jgn benci sgt nanti dapat kau org arab.. i just can laugh right now..

excuse me, kawan aku kat sana nak kenal2 dgn kau.. kau sudi ke?
siapa? yg mana?
meh la sini..
hi!! ( muka mcm "R" la, hensem )
hi.. i nak kenal2 bole?
bole jugak.
nama siapa?
iza.. you?
hamza..
ohh.. ( bole sama plak ending dia.. cute la dia ni )
kata nak kenal2, no. you apa?
kejap la, tgh gabra ni..
i'm in a hurry actually, mak dah call suro balik.. :)
( terjadilah per-exchange an no.)
i balik dulu la ye.. kalau sudi, call nanti
i'll call you 2nite.. bye..
bye.. NADIAH!! balik meh..

haha, dari situ kita berkawan.. selalu call lepas kul 2 pagi.. alamak eh, mamat ni, tak tau tido ke? rupa nye baru balik kerja.. kerja pizza hut. oh, bawak motor.. motor lagi.. find it irony, i dun like to ride bike, tapi kawan ramai yg bermotor..

nama penuh you apa?
Syed Hamza
you ni arab? ( dlm hati, padan muka aku )

haha, dia ni pun datang kat aku utk kongsi masalah jugak.. pasal perempuan. ya Allah, ramai sungguh. senang jatuh cinta kot. selalu stress kalau perempuan lukakan hati dia.. he decided to break our friendshiop.. Tuhan aje tau aku nye hati mcm mana that time.. dengar kan cerita dia, aku yg risau. sampai la aku dah jatuh hati kat dia.. waktu tu jugak dia tinggalkan aku. :( sampai hati you.. aku sampai sakit seminggu pasal dia.. but aku rasa that time, i need to move on.. mungkin dia dah bahagia dgn perempuan yg dia pilih..

berkenalan pulak dgn anggota Ruffedge, Azan Addin. exchanged no. some sort like scandal gitu.. he's soo romantic. will definitely call me up whenver he's here.. naughty tapi.. but he also dah tak contact dgn aku..

satu hari pukul dua pagi..

i dun wanna noe.. ( hp berbunyi ) walaupun dia dah tak contact, tiap kul 2 pagi mesti aku menunggu panggilan telefon dia.. tak kisah kalau besok pagi kerja ke tidak.. nak kene bangun kul 6 pagi tiap2 hari.
hello..
hi iza,masih kenal tak?
of course i do, Syed Hamza.. i ni bukan nye type yg lupa kawan.. how are you?
getting better.. how are you these days?
doing fine..
you miss me? (dlm hati, kau tak tau yg aku sakit pasal kau 1 week)
tak ah, nak rindu you buat apa, bukan nye dapat benefit.. ( rasakan )

hehe.. gitu la aku dgn hamza berkawan balik.. ingat senang ke nak dapat dia? susah tau.. dah gitu sampai la matair ni.. nak dekat setahun.. insya Allah berkekalan..
SAYANG!! IZA SAYANGKAN ABANG!!!
itu sahaja. gaduh tu biasa kan dlm perhubungan.. tapi tak mau la cepat2 merajuk k sayang... love you!!

sealed with a kiss
2:10 PM

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

HAPPY 40th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

i'm stuck in my house this hol. haiya.. damn bored. but tak pe.. watched ke hujung nyawa or whatever the title is.. featuring YUSRY KRU!! i watched it also because of him, not that i adore him so much. but i just like anything that have to do with KRU.. i'm a big fan of them!! so touching the story.. menangis sekejapan..

mama, ayah, iza sayang kan mama ayah sangat.. tak ada orang yg tahu. iza mungkin kurang ada masa bersama mama dgn ayah, tapi bukan bermakna iza tak sayangkan kamu berdua.. iza selalu doa yg iza tak akan menghampakan mama dgn ayah. iza mahu memberikan mama dgn ayah kesenangan.. kadang kala iza tahu iza tak menjadi anak yg baik, tapi jgn salahkan diri sendiri.. mama dgn ayah banyak berkorban utk iza, iza hargai itu semua. mama dan ayah banyak mendidik iza manjadi sempurna. terima kasih. jangan berpaling dari iza.. kalau iza membuat kesilapan, tegur iza...
iza sedar yg iza banyak menghabiskan masa diluar.. kerana kalau iza dirumah, selalu sahaja kita tak sehaluan. ada sahaja masalah yg timbul. ketika ini la, pada umur iza begini la, iza perlukan kasih sayang mama dgn ayah lagi lebih. iza cemburu dgn kasih sayang yg mama berikan pada azwany dan abg eas. mama selalu kata mama lebih sayangkan mereka. iza cemburu.. walaupun kalau mama sakit, ayah sakit, iza yg banyak menolong dgn kerja2 rumah, tapi mama dgn ayah tak pernah nampak itu semua. mama dgn ayah selalu nampak keburukan iza sahaja. sbb itu iza suka ada di luar. walau pun iza sedar, kalau pun iza ada di luar, mama dgn ayah lebih berfikiran buruk terhadap iza.
iza tau iza masih belum dapat menolong keluarga sebanyak yg mungkin. tapi sekiranya mama dgn ayah bersuara, iza tidak lengah2 utk membantu. bukan iza mengharapkan balasan, iza lakukan semua dgn keikhlasan cuma jgn la anggap iza sahaja yg bersalah dm rumah ini.
iza rasa mama dan ayah faham liku2 kehidupan yg dilalui oleh remaja. oh, iza terlupa. mama selalu cakap yg mama tak pernah ada masalah waktu remaja. bukan apa la, mama harus sedar, mama kehilangan mak ketika umur 9 tahun, kemudiannya mama hidup berdikari. iza pasti mama dapat melakukan apa yg para remaja lakukan. keluar bersama kawan2, mama pun tak pernah ada masalah dlm perhubungan. ayah, jgn cakap la.. dgn apa yg ayah ceritakan selama ini, ayah lebih mendapat keseronokan di alam remaja. tapi iza? iza tak dapat tau. iza harus bekerja dan belajar sekali gus. masa sosial iza banyak yg hilang. iza cuma ada hamza sahaja. banyak masalah iza , iza berkongsi dgn hamza. iza tak dapat kongsi dgn mama dan ayah.. kamu berdua tak akan faham.
cuma iza tak mahu menjadi anak derhaka. sekali lagi iza mohon dgn mama dan ayah, sayangilah iza seadanya.. sungguhpun tak sempurna, terima la iza...

kpd Abang, jgn tinggalkan iza ya... you la tempat iza mengadu. you la tempat iza menangis.. kalau tak ada dirimu sayang, tak tau mcm mana lagi iza akan jadi. dgn kasih sayang mu sayang, iza dapat teruskan kehidupan ini..

kepada 3 orang insan yg teramat iza sayang, MAMA, HAMZA & AYAH...
IZA SAYANG KAMU BERTIGA!!!
jangan berpaling dari iza... iza perlukan kasih sayang kalian.. :'(

sealed with a kiss
7:25 AM

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

had fun today with amal and nana.. today much of my time were spent with this 2 crazy fren of mine. taking pics from my digi.. try to upload, alamak eh, menyirap.. tak boleh makanye.. geram aje kan.. gila2 ah hari ni.. aku dan nana bertungkus lumus habis kan theme board. kene marah dgn mdm.. aku nye aje. sibuk dgn table display. tak makan lunch. celebrate national day dgn budak2. nadiah kene chicken pox. ayun pun sama. diorg kata aku high chance dapat. tapi seingat aku, aku ada amek injection to prevent kuman. mudah2an tak dapat la aku. sayang banget dgn liana and shahirah of k2. kiut diorg tu. sayang lagi kat kikiel. hee.. sayang ku sakit hari ni.. tgh tido. baby, get well soon ok. tu la tengok benda2 tu banyak sgt. makan breakfast, lunch & dinner satu kali kat tenderbest. mengekek makanye. apa seh aku type mcm gini. tambah sayang aku kat family mj. pasal apa, aku pun tak tau. nak upload lagu, takut tak jadi lagi. hm.. itu aje la. bye.

sealed with a kiss
1:01 PM

Sunday, August 07, 2005

just came back from my workplace and from Courts to collect my digi cam, my Panasonic Lumix. hehe.. nice!! i like!!! the colour is what i'm writing with.. nice right? so girly.. hehe.. at last, my own camera.. no need to borrow people anymore.. that's the best part. and need not to share with anyone.. so no borrowing ah..
do up our theme board.. theme on birds.. birds? yeehaw!! together with nana.. and we also think that this year teacher's day celebration, the prizes should go to both of us.. haha!! perasan seh.. mana tak nye, waktu national day preparation (M&M room) cuma kita berdua aje yg siapkan tau.. yg lain sume dah balik..kita yg stay lambat, this time pun sama. pokoknye, most hardworking teachers la.. haha!! tak ada la, tak heran la kita dapat nama ke tidak.. yg pentingnye, every body happy. Tampines happy! :) betul tak nana?
hmm.. duit dah berkurangan ni.. ada sesiapa yg bole pinjamkan duit???

sealed with a kiss
9:14 AM

Friday, August 05, 2005

orang2 sume jgn kutuk hamza lagi ok pasal hp dia.. dia dah ada hp baru tau.. sbb dia suka sgt main game, n-gage ada lah utk dia.. patut pun dapat hp tu.. hehe.. b, tak mau kasi rosak hp tu ok.. anggap la hp tu as my early gift for our anniversary.. :) apa yg buat you happy, i happy jugak.. so sorry you tak dapat n-gage classic bcoz iza kelua lambat dari kerja that's why, org lain dah beli dulu.. yg pentingnye, kalau abang2 mj sume nak blootoot :) jgn lupa masuk kan nama hamza sekali.. kalau tak, iza kasi sepakan harimau. hehe.. ok la, nak rest ah dulu.. hari ni banyak sak kene atatck.. minggu ni ada la minggu aku kene hentam sia.. tak satu2 aku kene complain. tchr easma like this tchr easma like that.. hmm.. bagus la, if i'm not cut to be a teacher, than terminate my service. i'm more than willing to do that.. and this parents, dun think that your children are all angels ok, we are the one suffering inside there.. with 70 kids total under my care, naturally i will get on my verge on 3% of them.. ee.. nak jaga la anak2 ramai gitu, kita tengok lu org bole handle ke tidak..

sealed with a kiss
12:45 PM

Thursday, August 04, 2005

just now had dinner with him @ LJ.. both of us just don't want to let go of each other.. he came unexpectedly early when actually my briefing has not ended yet.. rush out to see him.. hehe.. there he was.. after 3 days, ya, it's the longest period of time we dun see each other.. haha!! he send me home, hugging him tightly, miss him, miss his smell, miss his smile, miss him kacau2 me.. i miss everything about him.. sampai aje depan blok, he looked at me... nak balik ke nak duduk sekejap?.. gosh, i'm thinking the same thing. i dun want to go back, he too.. hee~ then i suggest, kita gi makan nak? then we go to LJ.. wow, like the feeling so much.. mcm baru kenal seh. hehe..
tgh duduk2 he konon try to make up story, konon dia ada kenal2 dgn perempuan.. he knows that i'm sure going to be jealous.. then he said, tak de la main2.. but i coolly said, hmm.. you kalau bercerita cakap aje main2 nanti end up jadi cerita betul.. contoh cerita seri tu la.. ungkit la ni.. hehe.. celaka nye kawan dia kenal kan hamza dgn perempuan, kau tau dia dah ada aku yg kau kenal kan dia kenapa? hamza tu bukan bole kene sikit, gatal semacam..
bercerita pasal seri, satu hari tu kul 4 pagi hamza call nak ajak berbual, aku dah agak kalau kul 4 pagi dia call mesti nak minta maaf buat salah.. but that time tak tau apa yg dia buat.. dia pun mengaku berkenalan dgn perempuan seri ni.. sialan.. sebel aku.. at last, dia express kan jugak betapa sayang nye dia kat aku.. hmm,, seronok sekali.. love to see him blushing.. aww.. seksi la B..
balik, duduk lagi bawah blok.. masih tak nak tinggal kan each other ni.. end up, we need to go.. hmm so sad.. but today rasa hati berbunga2 aje..
Sayang, thank you for the love and care all this while.. i feel so in love!!!
I LOVEYOU!!!

sealed with a kiss
1:02 PM

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

went out with mama & ayah to Tampines Mall.. went to Courts to check out on the Digi cams.. not so much of collection.was hoping to set my hands on the Casio Exilim though it' s my no. 2nd choice.. my 1st is definitely Cannon Ixus.. wow!! i had tested it.. my precious Cannon.. but that sales promoter suggested that if i wanted to buy that kind of model like Cannon's perhaps i should consider Panasonic Lumix.. true enough, with the size, weight, style like Cannon but more user friendly and much more better function, i've decided on the latter. furthermore it comes with a lot of freebies.. hehe.. goodbye Ixus, i can't be with you.. Lumix has proven that it can provide me with better life.. quality and all.. ya, so Lumix FX-8, wait till we get together.. :) sure ku kerjakan.. haha!! so now, get ready to smile!!!!

sealed with a kiss
2:08 PM

Monday, August 01, 2005

weehee~~ juz came back from meeting my MJ family.. but 1st, let me wish my lil bro a HAPPY 8th BIRTHDAY adik gemuk!! haha!! well, belanja dia makan kat luar.. uncle amran beli kan dia hover disc Batman.. suka dia dapat present.. sorry kakak tak beli kan apa2, sbb barang yg kakak kasi sume kau dah kasi JAHANAM!! buang duit aku aje.. then, get myself a new hairsyle. potong rambut la kan org kata.. pendek.. hmm :( ni pun sbb hamza selalu kata aku pakai helmet tak betul.. jadi, korbankan rambut aku yg panjang tu.. tapi ok jugak ah.. muka mcm budak2.. then in the evening, jumpa MJ sume kat Singapore Expo.. pergi pameran pengantin.. mcm aku pulak yg nak kahwin pergi sana.. apa org kata, amek berkat la kan.. hehe.. quite boring coz nothing goes to my interest. sempat bergaduh dgn hamza ni.. eee!!! geram!!dia lately cari gaduh aje.. aku kasi kan gado2 makan baru tau.. kasi makan? makin la dia suka eh.. hehe.. anyway, gaduh nye sekejap aje.. now dah ok. main Scissors, Paper, Stone dgn Ammar.. siapa kalah belanja minum kat Masai nanti.. 1st round, aku menang.. 2nd dgn betting yg dah dikuatkuasa, dia pulak menang.. alamak eh, wa sot aje kan.. dah aku kene belanja.. alah, tak kisah la.. had Nasi Pattaya there.. sedap.. tgh dok2 nampak pulak abang herman.. dia pun rupa nye selalu makan kat sana.. biasa la, kalau MJ ada, konfem sume barang jadi sedap.. ahakz!! still boring ni tak dapat escort this 7th Aug.. kak Alia dah bilang nak pakai putih, too bad.. aku tak leh gi.. tak pe, wan tunang nanti ya..
utk org2 yg kurang pasti apa tu MJ yg selalu ku katakan, sila ke website kami yg terdapat di link aku.. kenalilah kami.. hehe..
hmm.. what else eh? dah la, tak tau apa lagi.. tido la. haha!! niari malam tido senyum aje.. :p ehem, ehem.. :)

sealed with a kiss
2:06 PM