Different faces of me

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

so yesterday hampir2 putus cinta.. dah kat tekak seh nak cakap.. BUT!! nasib baik dia admit kesilapan dia..

tetapi aku nak step ego la kan.. dia minta maaf.. okay, dengar gitu aku terus angkat kaki jalan.. hehe.. tak toleh belakang pun.. jalan terus gi bus stop, naik bas, gi esplanade.. gelabah sekejap member.. terus sms aku tak putus2 seh.. gasak la.. smlm hari aku nak sendiri.. and yes ah, rasa bebas seh sekejap..

dah sampai esplanade, duduk layan blues.. gerek ah.. sorang2 kat sana.. tempat tu memang tempat aku buang problem.. selalu kalau ada problem, gi sana, buang semua problem.. tapi problem smlm liat nak kene buang ni..

then tgh duduk2 sekali terdengar irama muzik arab.. aku pun tengok ah.. terhibur sekali! tgh menyirap dgn org arab, tengok pulak persembahan arab.. mana2 pusing, ada org arab.. menyirap pulak..

tgh tengok syiok2.. teringat pulak 1st time aku & dia jumpa.. kat pesta arab.. Arab lagi.. lagu2 smlm mcm mana lagu2 yg 1st time kita jumpa tu.. alamak eh, rindu pulak.. TAPI!! ego tetap tinggi..

dah boring kat sana, boleh la buang sikit kan problem, balik ah. tgh dlm mrt dia call la pulak.. hik, mcm tau pulak aku nak balik.. dia minta la utk jumpa..

aku pulak dah ok, apa lagi, set ah.. gi makan sume gelak2 mcm tak ada apa berlaku.. gila kan?

ABANG!! KENAPA LA OTAK YOU TU SOT?? sikit2 nak gaduh.. chill la sayang..

sealed with a kiss
3:17 PM

Sunday, November 27, 2005

dah lama kan tak update.. well, life at home been up & down.. dunno why.. you think it's easy to become Mama M's daughter? pressure seh.. i'm beginning to feel it now.

now mama dah tak leh kene sikit seh.. i mean org2 kat dlm rumah tak leh cakap salah sikit.. melenting nye melebih.. abg eas dah kene. aku pulak skrg.. katanye, kenapa org bole appreciate dia, kenapa kita anak2 tak bole.. apa pulak? org2 & kawan2 mama tu sume shedding crocodile's tears tau tak.. sume tu nak mengampu aje..

well, dia marah2 sbb kita selalu kelua.. eh, apa ni? semenjak bila pulak kita tak leh kelua ni? abg eas yg dah tua tu pun kene marah.. aku lebih2 la.. kita kalau kat rumah pun nak buat apa seh.. dia 24 jam dgn radio dia.. calling sana sini berbual pasal apa terjadi kat radio.. aku ajak berbual pun dia tak nak.. katanye, jgn ganggu time dia.. okay fine ah..apa lagi, aku gi kerja aje ah.. aku dok dlm bilik ingat nak rilek aje.. itu pun kene marah.. dia kalau dah berbual kat telefon, pergi internet pulak.. aku nye time utk internet pun tak ada.. skrg kalau mlm, sikit2 suro update kan dia kat web.. eh, aku dah bosan la hidup dgn radio ni.. sampai aku minta hamza beli kan mp3 jadi aku tak dengar lagu2 kat Ria lagi..

aku dgn Ria bukan baru2 ni kenal.. sblm mama aktif, aku lagi aktif sampai naik bosan.. kerenah org2 kat radio sume aku dah kenal.. yg backstab aku pun ada.. jadi dah lali la..

jadi mama, pls la.. bukan kita tak sayang mama.. kita sayang mama sgt.. cuma mama tengok eh, masa kita bersama dah kurang tau.. kita kat rumah ni pun jadi mcm tunggul.. buat apa dlm rumah sume salah.

iza nak mama iza yg dulu.. bukan MAMA M...

sealed with a kiss
6:30 AM

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

baru balik kerja tadi.. terus boring.. eh, do i mention kerja? YES!! cuti yg aku fikir aku dapat enjoy, terbantut.. tadi kul 9 pagi, mdm call suro aku datang kerja.. ye la kan.. org pergi course, tak ada leave sebenarnye.. baik ah gini.. menyesal pulak amek diploma.. asyik ada aje yg tersekat..

pasal ini jugak aku bergaduh dgn hamza.. asyik bergaduh aje, tak penat eh? tapi aku tak kisah this time.. gasak dia la.. yg aku tau, aku diam aje..

hmm, kawan2 kerja dari empat2 centre ada dapat ceret beret.. aku bernasib baik tak kene.. coz diorg makan nasi goreng kat kidz fiesta tu.. aku tak makan sbb ada seafood. nasib baik tak makan seafood.. ada baik nye kekadang.. and ramai la yg mc.. gasak korang la..

tadi aku menjenguk ke class baru aku.. dah terfikir nak buat apa dgn bilik tu.. aku dapat pilih flooring colour apa aku nak pakai.. best kan? crap seh easma..

dah la, bye!

sealed with a kiss
2:02 PM

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

okay, 1st day of cuti.. 13 more days to go.. memang seronok dengar word cuti tu.. tapi yg tak best nye, cuti tgh tak ada duit, and tak ada org nak ajak kelua.. next week ada fulus, aku cuti, kawan2 pulak kerja.. next week nye lagi, ada fulus, aku pulak kerja, kawan2 cuti.. next week nye lagi, sume cuti tapi sume nanti dah tak ada fulus lagi.. eh, bila nak habis dah gini..

abang pulak tak habis2 kerja.. da tak ada masa sama2..
haiz.. apa cuti dok rumah aje?? boring seh.. aku duduk diam2, mama tanya tak nak kelua ke? aku nak kelua, dia tak habis2 cakap, asyik nak kelua aje.. eh, mana satu ni?? kenapa org sume fickle minded eh?

i so need money!!!!!!!!!

sealed with a kiss
3:30 PM

Monday, November 21, 2005

SLC dah lepas. Kidz Fiesta dah lepas. apa lagi? cuti pun dah start. wah!! best seh.. yg tak best nye, waktu cuti ni, tak ada fulus la.. :(

speaking of Kidz Fiesta la kan.. saturday kan aku stay sana kat hotel, aku, nana & aini jalan memalam kat orchard road. org suro buat kerja bukan merayap... alah, kalau diorg suro buat kerja pun tak dapat la.. holding area tu pun tgh ada function.. so lepak la kat bilik hotel.

cuma 6 org aje yg stay.. best kan? sume org tamp pulak.. bilik hotel best! tingkat 24.. tinggi tu.. toilet dia cantik.. hehe.. itu pun nak bilang.. nak tengok gambar aku dlm toilet dia??

merepek kan aku dgn nana.. sini pun bole amek.. bukan senang nak dapat buat kerja dlm bilik hotel..

lepas ni, aku, aini dgn nana kelua la jalan.. dah kul 12 lebih.. konon best la jalan malam2.. kot kita sume takut.. i mean seriously, night life is just not me..kita diganggu oleh transvertite.. ada org ikut jalan.. minah & mat stare kat kita.. silap langkah, ada aje.. sampai balik bilik hotel dlm 1 lebih, sume lega.. and we said that itu la kali terakhir kita nak jalan orchard malam2. haha! kental seh..

anyway, here are some pix taken on saturday..

christmas tree kat Paragon..

hadiah besar depan Orchard MRT.

teringat zaman drama Bara..

alah.. kalau si gatal ni. frame besar yg tak bercermin along Orchard Road.

dah tak tau nak pose apa.. tgh lepak.. si aini nye idea la ni.. konon step jadi minah.. itu aku konon aje ok.. tengok betul2 tak ada rokok pun..

pose giler nana & aini.. ni sume gimik aje.. nana nak merokok? nak minta kene pelangkong??
the view from our room.. best kan? mcm postcard.. tak sangka singapore ni cantik..

itu aje la utk post ini..

for the peeps who made our Kidz Fiesta happened, THANK YOU SO MUCH!! minta maaf kalau ada yg termarah atau terpekik tadi.. as a Chief Runner, i have to do my job.. jadi kalau sesiapa tak dengar memang nak kene dgn aku.. Well done Nana!!

and oh yeah! today is the 21st right? Happy Monthaversary to Syed Hamza.. I love you so much despite apa yg abang dah lakukan kat iza.. iza berdoa semoga satu hari nanti abang sedar la akan perangai abang itu.. i will never give up on you.. I LOVE YOU SAYANG!!

sealed with a kiss
4:30 PM

Sunday, November 20, 2005

how do you think my new template? is it better than the previous one? hehe.. ada masa seh nak buat..

tonite i'll be sleeping over at Meritus Mandarin hotel for tomorrow's event.. Kidz Fiesta la kan.. so takut lambat besok, mangkernye tadi gi kerja lambat giler seh, decide utk tidoq sana la kan.. tolong la sikit2 with the set up..

sebelum tu will meet hamza dulu.. dia pun malam ni kerja, so before he went to work he send me to the hotel 1st. hmm.. mcm mana la kan jumpa dia nanti..

anyway, feedback la kan on this new template..

sealed with a kiss
10:20 AM

Saturday, November 19, 2005

okay.. konon aku la berkata2 okay.. hehe.. dah tak stress lagi sbb SLC dah pun berlalu.. and the parents are happy with me and they thanked me for my effort in teaching their child.. wow! happy seh.. diam tak diam dah setahun aku ajar budak2 tu.. nak masuk K1 dah.. and tak best nye, aku masuk K1 nanti.. boring la.. jumpa budak2 lama.. heheh.. anyway, ini la proudness nye jadi guru when you receive feedback that you have done your job well.. Alhamdulillah..

anyway, bawah ni sikit gambar2 raya yg hari tu aku jalan dgn kawan2 kerja.. enjoy la kan..

ni kat rumah Mdm Zab.. pagi2 lagi kita dah sampai..

ni rumah Mdm Aini, dah slack sikit..

kawan baik kat kerja.. Nana & aku.. host pada hari itu..

empat dara pingitan kat rumah nana..

dah boring, aku & nana main bunga api.. syiok beb!

begitu la gambar2 nye.. yg lain.. tunggu tahun depan okay? bye!!

sealed with a kiss
1:20 PM

Thursday, November 17, 2005

paham tak dgn lirik lagu ni?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! walaupun lagu ni rancak, but the lyric was so sedih..
so to you dear, do you understand the lyric?????

aaaaaaarghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! stress banget!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aku boleh jadi giler!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tolong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i mean it, i seriously need help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i tak tahan lagi diderita mcm gini!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tolong la, jgn main2kan hati iza!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! iza bukan patung yg tak ada perasaan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kalau tak suka dgn iza lagi, CAKAP LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! jgn seksa batin iza mcm gini!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my heart is aching so much!!!!!!!!!!! siapa nak baik kan?????

KENAPA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU BUAT IZA MCM GINI??????????????????????????????????

sealed with a kiss
2:00 PM

hati-hati dengan hatiku

karna hatiku mudah layu

jangan kamu bermain-main

karna ku tak main-main
sungguh aku bersungguh-sungguh

cintaku ini cinta mati

mati-matian akupertahankan cintaku

aku takkan rela bila kau tinggalkan aku

kan berbuat apa saja untuk mendapatkan kamu lagi
rupa-rupa alasan kamu untuk tetap tinggalkan aku

rupanya kamu memang sudah tak cinta aku
cintamu yg berbisa

bisa racuni aku bisa-bisanya kamu mau tinggalkan aku

sealed with a kiss
1:35 PM

Monday, November 14, 2005

yesterday's date with him was a memorable one.. both of us had so much fun!! we were acting as though kita ni baru kenal.. mcm 1st date gitu.. i WAS so happy!! we went to watch JUST LIKE HEAVEN.. a very very nice romantic comedy.. i cried..i am touched coz i felt thet i am in that movie..being loved by the man of my dream...touching giler nye.. and towards the end, we went on a double date. with his friend & gf. we went for a late dinner at Chai Chee Restaurant Tampines..

i smiled in my sleep.. only to wake up feeling like a shit. today was a definitely different day from yesterday.. we fought like hell. i don't know what's up with him. spoilt my mood to go out but coz i've promised my friends, i just go jalan raya.. forcing myself to smile.. every laughter that i made, it is filled with tears of heart ache.

came back home, yes.. i cried just like yesterday but for a different reason. i cried for the lost love..

sealed with a kiss
3:10 PM

Friday, November 11, 2005

couple paling secocok.. hehe..

family bersama tanpa khalifah tapi.. :(

wooh.. abg2 macho la..

kakak2 jambu la pulak..

abg2 hensem lagi..

bersama di rumah bro rizal.. jauh la tapi kan..

ok, penutup puteri2 MJ tanpa Treasurer..

sealed with a kiss
2:30 PM

okay, kalau para pelajar sume stress dgn belajar, aku pun stress jugak!!!!!!! stress maut nye. gila la, aku takut la next week. banyak kerja belum siap..

1. Report book budak belum buat
2. Nak kene set up classroom
3.nak kene sort paper (belum habis mark pun)
4. M&M room berselerak giler
5. Full dress Rehearsal utk Kidz Fiesta
6. Student Led Conference
7. Kidz Fiesta '05

wah.. takut ah.. nak mc lagi la gini. mana tak takut nye, utk no. 1, 2, 3, 4 & 6 aku kene buat solo seh.. dah tak ada partner nak buat kerja sesama.. alah, ada partner ke tak ada sama aje aku rasa..

bingit seh tadi dgn bekas partner.. ee!! mcm nak cekik2 aje.. during the 1st semester aku dah buat report budak2 cuma silap nye aku tak masuk kan dlm table.. so, si partner aku ni KONON nye nak tolong la kan.. dia kalau utk org nye kerja mmg suka sibuk2 jadi org nampak la dia buat kerja walaupun satu hapak pun tak siap.. so, dia kata la dia dah BUAT report tu.. aku pun lega la kan ingat beban aku ada juga ah sama2 nak pikul, eh, tu pun mmg kerja dia pe.. then berkali2 aku minta dia benda tu, dia kata ada2.. sampai tadi aku minta dia, dia cakap yg dia tak buat.. mak kau!! 5 bulan aku kasi dia buat, itu pun tak siap.. dah la besok deadline utk hand in report.. aku kene buat all over balik. bodoh kape?

skrg ni nak mark paper lagi.. dia bole la.. semua kerja dia, dia pass kat teacher baru.. mark teacher baru buat, sort teacher baru buat, jaga budak tchr baru buat, oral kan budak, tchr baru buat.. eh, gini apa kerja dia buat? oh.. sibuk2 kan diri aje la kan.. makan sikit nye lama... isy, nasib baik la dia bukan aku nye partner lagi..

step konon dia choreographer utk konsert kerja berat la.. eh, tolong la kalau setakat joget aje, tak ada susah nye la.. skrg budak2 pun dah pandai joget sendiri, kau tak yah nak sibuk2 lagi2.. konon kau tau joget, kau pandai melaram, org segan dgn kau ah? eh, rilek sudah.. kau tau tak yg kepala kau tu bau busuk? saje je aku tak nak cakap dgn kau.. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! geram betul la!!!!

selagi aku tak kelua kan benda ni dari badan, selagi tu rasa nye aku dapat migraine..

yg no.4 pulak, itu kira secondary duty aku.. tengok ah, M&M room tu dipakai oleh setiap lapisan org dlm skola tu tau.. situ la tempat assembly, situ la tempat budak2 practice, situ la tempat letak costumes, situ la tempat org ngumpat, semua la.. tapi aku yg kene kemas tau! A-K-U.. AKU!!!! kalau ada big2 event gini la,

Easma, you forgot your duty is it? you have to take care of the M&M room right? it's in big mess.. cik **** dah tegur..
***, saya kerja sorang aje skrg, saya jugak kene kemas sorang bilik ni? adil ke?
i dun care, you still have to kemas..
ye la.. i go now..

dah biasa la gini, dari last year seh.. tapi aku jugak la siap kan.. apa aku jugak yg jahat ke? tak cukup baik ke aku ni? mungkin sbb kebaikan aku, org pijak kepala tak?????

sealed with a kiss
12:30 PM

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Waktu kita bersama indahnya ku alami

Waktu kita berdua, janji2 bersemi

Apapun rintangan dapat kita harungi

Apapun persoalan dapat kita jalani

Namun semuanya berubah dalam sekelip mata

Hati terluka bila ku sedar kau khianati cinta

Jiwa meronta bila ternyata kau menduakan cinta

Sungguh ku tak menyangka begini di akhirnya

Kau tinggalkan ku hati terluka

Menggamit kan kembali waktu kau lafaz cinta

Sambil ku sarung cincin sebagai tanda setia

Menggamitkan kembali waktu kau kesedihan

Kukesat air mata yg jatuh berlinangan

Ku terima semuanya dengan tabah

Mengharapkan ada hikmah

sealed with a kiss
3:05 PM

aku rasa lagu ni lagi best la dari lagu ada band tu.. jadi enjoy la kan.. apa nak buat, bekas Phyne Ballerz jugak.. jadi suka la kan...

sealed with a kiss
3:05 PM

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

a joke just to distress..

First-grade teacher, Ms Neelam ( Age 28) was having trouble with one of her students.

The teacher asked, "Singh Jr. what is your problem?"

Singh Jr.answered, "I'm too smart for the first-grade. My sister is in the third grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the third-grade too!"

Ms Neelam had enough. She took Singh Jr. to the principal's office.

While Singh Jr. waited in the outer office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was.

The principal told Ms Neelam he would give the boy a test and if he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the first-grade and behave. She agreed.

Singh Jr. was brought in and the conditions were explained to him and he agreed to take the test.

Principal: "What is 3 x 3?"Singh Jr: "9".

Principal: "What is 6 x 6?"Singh Jr: "36".

And so it went with every question the principal thought a third- grade should know.The principal looks at Ms Neelam and tells her, "I think Singh Jr. can go to the third-grade."

Ms Neelam says to the principal, "I have some of my own questions. Can I ask him?"

The principal and Singh Jr. both agree.

Ms Neelam asks, "What does a cow have 4 of that I have only 2 of ?"

Singh Jr, after a moment: "Legs."

Ms Neelam: "What is in your pants that you have but I don't have?"

Singh Jr: "Pockets."

Ms Neelam: "What does a dog do that a man steps into ?"

Singh J.: Pull his "Pants"

Ms Neelam: What starts with a C and ends with a T, is hairy, oval, delicious and contains thin whitish liquid?

Singh Jr: Coconut

Ms Neelam: What goes in hard and pink then comes soft and sticky ?
(The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer, Singh Jr. was taking charge.)

Singh Jr: Bubblegum

Ms Neelam: What does a man do standing up, a woman does sitting down and a dog does on three legs?(The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer...)

Singh Jr.: Shake hands

Ms Neelam: Now I will ask some "Who am I" sort of questions, okay?

Singh Jr.: Yep.

Ms Neelam: You stick your poles inside me. You tie me down to get me up. I get wet before you do.

Singh Jr: Tent

Ms Neelam: A finger goes in me. You fiddle with me when you're bored.The best man always has me first.(The Principal was by now looking restless, a bit tense and took a swig of a large Vodka.)

Singh Jr: Wedding Ring

Ms Neelam: I come in many sizes. When I'm not well, I drip. When you blow me, you feel good.

Singh Jr: Nose

Ms Neelam: I have a stiff shaft. My tip penetrates. I come with a quiver.

Singh Jr: Arrow

Ms Neelam: What word starts with an 'F' and ends in 'K' that means a lot of heat and excitement?

Singh Jr: Firetruck

The principal breathed a sigh of relief and said to the teacher,

"Send Singh Jr. to Delhi University.I got the last ten questions wrong myself !!!"

yeah right principal.. me too!! whoever answered wrongly please tag or leave a comment.. haha!!

sealed with a kiss
3:50 PM

dear mama....

i am so happy to see you happy. seeing your smile, makes the whole world shines.. (ewah).. chet!

bukan apa, hari ni daun dia naik la.. and dia happy memanjang sepanjang hari ni.. jadi dia beli kan mee goreng india & nasi goreng favouriteku.. wow! TQ.. nak tau pasal apa tak? pasal banyak hari ni msg kat ria link pasal dia.. jadi dia happy la.. see, senang kan nak buat kan dia happy.. tak pasal2 balik, mama pun sayang dgn hamza.. ek? apa ni? gila ke?? hehehehe...

bermula dgn msg ni:

A'KUM DAN TRIMAKASEH KPD TEMAN2 RIA YG SUDI BRKUNJONG KERUMAH KAMI. KEHADHIRAN ANDA AMAT D HARGAI. U NOE WHO U R. TRIMAKASEH. MAMA M

jadi banyak la msg masuk kat buletin ria...:

SYAH SLAMAT HARI RAYA DAN TRIMA KASI SUJI U YG U KRIM DGN ANAK MAMA M WE AL SMUA DA RASA-DARAPUJAAN

THK SHAH SEDAP ...SUJI SAMPAI HUSBAND I BAWAK BALIK SUJI DARI RUMAH MAMA M SALAM LEBARAN UNK 5 WANITA ANGUN DAN TEAM M.P (WATICHEVROLET)

A AH SYA, PUNYELA POWER SUJI KIRIMAN U KAT UMAH MAMA M ARITU. ABIS BERSIH MANGKOK I JILAT, TAKYAH NAK CUCI LAGI. SILVERPERAK LUV U ALWAYS.TRASHBIN

SYAH SUJI U TU SEDAP TAPI KALU U YG SUAPKAN LAGIK SEDAP.TAK GITU DARAPUJAAN?SILVER PERAK

TERIMA KASIH BUAT MAMAM,MAT SIGLAP,JO SANTAI KRANA MNJEMPUT 5WANITA ANGGUN KA-RUMAH.BUAT MAN BADONG SMOGA ANDA SEHAT SELALU HENDAKYA. DR DTN HAMIDAH

mcm mana shah nye nama bole terada dlm link dgn mama M ni, hanya org terdekat2 aje yg tau ok..

nak tau jugak?? nanti2 la ye..

tak ke tu, bole buat dia happy? i would like to wish all those who make my mama happy, MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU ALWAYS..

to mama, walaupun mama tak ada saudara lain dlm dunia ni, tapi keluarga dan teman2 yg sayang mama akan sentiasa cuba menceriakan dirimu..

signing off..
Anak M.. (aku ler..)

sealed with a kiss
1:30 PM

Monday, November 07, 2005

kays, dah masuk 4 hari raya kan?? mesti dengar lagu raya pun tak ada feel kan? so, decide to tukar lagu la.. itu sahaja utk post hari ni..

sealed with a kiss
11:00 AM

Sunday, November 06, 2005

okay, today was a super busy day for me & my family.. our house is filled with lots of people. jadi tak semena2 jadi mini open house la kan.. haha! what's on the menu? satay goreng, lontong, sambal goreng, mee goreng dan apa2 yg sewaktu dgn nye.. best la hari ni..

but yg buat ramai kan org is the peeps from team MP. nak sebut nama, ramai sgt.. thanks a million sbb sudi datang rumah kami yg simple ni.. you guys made my mum happy. i like! wah!! mcm2 ilmu dari Papa M kan? haha!! eh, my dad tak kene la jadi Papa M.. dia kene jadi Ayah Smurf. hehe.. i'll upload the pics ya..

utk pengetahuan, my family mmg tak ramai sedara so if they wants to treat us as family, by all means ok, you are most welcome.

and speaking of my mum, she is popularly known in the air of Ria 89.7 fm as Mama M.. anybody heard of her before? and to clear the misunderstanding, she is one fine woman you know.. dia kat radio, org nye neutral.. tak pihak mana2. "sini" baik, "sana" baik.. semua dia anggap mcm sedara coz she memang sebatang kara kat dunia ni, cuma kita anak2 and family are her closest kin.. so, sesiapa yg baik dgn dia, memang dia akan treat org tu dgn lebih baik..

jadi utk org yg menabur fitnah ttg my mother, PLEASE STOP IT!!! YOU HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO RIGHT TO TALK BAD ABOUT HER OKAY!!! STOP SMS-ING OTHER PEOPLE AND TELL LIES ABOUT HER!! biarlah dgn siapa dia nak berkawan, bukan masalah kau apa? yg kau kepo sgt nak jaga tepi kain mak aku asal? dia berkawan dgn org popular kat ria be it from Merbuk Platoon ke from Lanun ke to Laila ke to Pujangga Malam ke.. suka dia ah.. bagi dia,dia berbual everything and anything under the sky.. apa? kau ingat mak aku nak pauto apa2 ke? kau ingat mak aku kaki gossip kape? org yg bole dipercayai sgt memang mak aku la eh.. (walaupun kekadang aku menyirap dgn dia)
ntah2, org ni jeles tak dgn populariti mak aku.. takut diri dia terjejas tak jadi popular lagi.. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! geram tau!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tak satu2 benda buat hal la.. hamza nye hal lain, skrg ni org fitnah lain.. kesian mama tau. nasib dia sabar aje, kalau aku la, aku dah jumpa ah dgn org ni..

and utk sesiapa nak kasi dedication utk Mama M, bole la kasi or sila berikan kepada 6 WANITA ANGGUN : Mama M, kak Yati, Lady Semut, Datin Hamidah, Dara Pujaan & Salbiah mohd. kalau mama M kasi ucapan mesti la dia letak 5 wanita anggun. tapi org2 yg bukan wanita anggun sila letak 6 wanita anggun ok.. and wanita anggun truly exist ok bukan main2 nye.. ni anggun bukan pada rupa tetapi pada personaliti.. jgn salah anggap.. haiz, heran ah mcm mana pasal hal radio pun bole jadi perbalahan. kau dengar radio pakai telinga, kita dengar radio pakai telinga, apa tak bole ke kita dengar sama2. kenapa tak bersatu hati as a community aje kan..

Pelik, pelik otak ku pelik..
bengkak, bengkak hati ku bengkak..

tak sesia sape2 datang rumah tadi.. ada yg bawak balik nasi briyani dam, abg man badong mama sempat bungkuskan apa2 makanan yg ada, ada yg bawak balik sugee. rezeki masing2 la kan.. jgn malu bertanya, insya Allah, barang2 ada.. Alhamdulillah.. abg max kuachi tak reply pulak msg iza, kalau tak dapat jugak jumpa..

para wanita2 yg sudi hadir..

para jejaka2 yg sudi hadir

me with Pak Maon & Linda's daughter, Fasya..

yg ini 5 wanita anggun, kak yati tak ada dlm gambar..
Mama M, salbiah mohd, Lady semut, dara pujaan & datin hamidah

yg lain2 you can view kat my fotopages for my gambar raya.. eh, but not now. nanti.. nak load banyak!!

sealed with a kiss
3:30 PM

Saturday, November 05, 2005

haha.. am watching Masih Ada Bintang di Turkey.. came back with easmael from yishun sbb dia sakit pulak. mama,ayah & azwany is still there right now. hmm..

dia masih tak nak berbual ni..

ada sesuatu yg menambat hati la dlm dialog dlm cerita ni..

Hakim: Roza, you harus praktikal. you harus berpijak pada bumi yg nyata..
apa perasaan you kalau org yg you sayang, tak sayangkan you lagi?

wow! that hurts man! ya, how would i feel? am feeling it right now.. i feel down. perhaps right, i need to be more practical..

another one that touches me..

Hakim: you harus ingat, you juga harus memikirkan kebahagiaan org lain..

hmm, mungkin jugak aku harus memikirkan kebahagiaan org, bukan aku sendiri yg ingin bahagia..

p/s: org2 dah bole tinggal kan komen kat bawah ni tau.. "nobody agrees with me"
if you agree, leave a comment ok!

sealed with a kiss
2:40 PM

shoot! raya2 gini pun nak kene sakit ke? benci seh.. sakit apa? sakit kepala yg teramat sangat.. it's too painful you know. mama said it was migraine. i dunno leh. seram la gini.. just now i just blackout sekejap..

info about migraine:

Migraines are painful, sometimes debilitating headaches often accompanied by nausea, vomiting, and sensitivity to light, noise, and smell. These throbbing headaches usually occur on only one side of the head, although the pain can shift from one side of the head to the other, or can occur on both sides simultaneously. Migraines involve changes in chemicals and blood vessels in the brain, which trigger pain signals leading to headache and other symptoms.

see? vomiting? hell yeah.. i kept vomiting and now i just kept myself in my room do not want to hear any noise from outside.. even the smell of frangrance i cannot smell..

what's triggers migraine:

Migraines may be triggered by food, stress, and changes in your daily routine, although it is not clear how or why these events lead to migraines. Some common triggers of migraines include:

Consuming certain substances such as chocolate, monosodium glutamate (MSG), red wine, and caffeine.
Getting too much or not enough sleep.
Fasting or skipping meals.
Changes in the weather or barometric pressure.
Stress or intense emotions.
Strong odors or cigarette smoke.
Bright lights or reflected sunlight.

note that it says STRESS OR INTENSE EMOTIONS. remembered yesterday's post? i am still cannot get over it. like someone is talking to me at the back of my head.. like hallucination. what's this? anybody can help? do you think i got mental problem? *gosh*

sealed with a kiss
4:15 AM

Friday, November 04, 2005

tho it's raya, but i dun feel good. well, i do have phobia to significant dates. especially raya.. just now in the morning, i dunno how to react. i would like to sleep all day. just to wake up for the next day..

i am so sad when i have to iron my family's clothes just now.. they are all wearing grey and me? white. menangis seh sekejap..

then came my uncle and cousin to fetch us. upon seeing us, my cousin sempat tanya ni. "kenapa iza lain?" wah!! tak sedih gitu.. even other people notice. so, just have to put up a smile aje la.. :-/

see? ni pic yg kita amek.. ayah pakai blazer tu but dlm nye? baju yg sama spt easmael & azwany.

dah la gitu, sedara tak ramai yg datang rumah uncle. ikatan persaudaraan mcm tak ada gitu.

then the best part, ibu suggest gi rumah tunang abg nas, after that gi rumah hamza baru gi rumah missy.. wah! seram beb.

mama pun sms la hamza and missy tanya ada rumah ke tidak.. yg reply dulu siapa tau, HAMZA!!
si missy lepas berkali2 sms and phone calls baru dia jawab.. nak tau apa? dia tido..

then dah sampai kat rumah tunang abg nas,(blk dekat dgn hamza) aku call la hamza.. mama cakap kul 730 kita sampai.. hamza jawab, kul 8 bleh? dia kat rumah last.. so okay.. :) aku pun tersenyum la kan..

so we went to our house 1st. dah maghrib sume, aku ingat gi la rumah hamza dulu.. they rushed back home just coz we said we want to come. tup2 gi rumah missy dulu. wah.. duduk sejam kat situ.. hamza pun call2 tanya bila nak sampai.. aku dgn dia apa lagi la bertekak ah.. rupa2 nye abah dia nak gi kerja sbb tu dia risau kenapa aku tak sampai2.. and he said ah. dah la tak yah datang..

wah! paiseh seh gini.. apa agak nye mak dia fikir pasal aku kan.. org beriya2 nak sambut kita datang, tup2 tak sampai.. eee!! aku malu!!!!

ni sume siapa nye salah? balik2 besar kan missy kan? sikit2 missy, sikit2 missy..
mana tak geram.. raya2 gini pun nak kene gaduh. sedih tau..

and now, he dun want to talk to me.. aku belum minta maaf pun kat dia..

Abang, iza minta maaf atas kesilapan iza selama ni terhadap diri abang..

halalkan makan minum iza ye sayang..

iza tau, iza banyak menyusahkan hidup abang selama kita bersama

iza tak tau nak berkorban waktu utk abang..

iza tak faham akan perasaan abang..

iza sedar, iza bukan la seorang kekasih yg baik..

tetapi di hari baik bulan baik ni,

iza cuma harap yg kita tak lagi selalu berselisih faham

jarang bertekak

dan saling memahami antara satu dan lain..

dari itu, iza meminta ampun sekali dgn abang..

sampai bila abang tak nak berbual dgn iza, iza pun tak tau..

cuma iza ingin abang tahu yg iza sayang kan abang..

Selamat Hari Raya

Minal A'idin Wal Faizin

Mohon maaf zahir & batin..

so now you know why i hate any significant dates? because of things like this...

sealed with a kiss
3:00 PM

i hope i am not too late to wish EID MUBARAK to all my muslim friends.. saya menghulurkan 10 jari memohon ampun dan maaf diatas kesilapan yg telah dilakukan selama ini.. halalkan makan minum semua.. sekali lagi, Salam Aidilfitri..

sealed with a kiss
2:37 PM

Thursday, November 03, 2005

yesterday went out with him to search for his things at Geylang.. wah! harga barang2 turun seh. up to 80% kita dapat.. first stop, die die must cari baju dulu. so, kita nampak la baju ni, baju melayu lelaki maroon, dia letak situ harga $70 ke berapa.. so i tell him, amek aje la mana tau kalau kedai lain tak ada kan.. and ya, nasib baik last piece utk size dia and the colour that we wanted. dia gi la tawar harga.. nak tau berapa tak dapat? at only $10 aje.. hehe.. wah! terkejut kita. ok la tu kan.. cheapos. haha!

then aku nye hantu shopping pun naik la.. abang, beli ni bang, abang beli tu bang.. haha! pusing2 beli la kain samping warna sedondon dgn baju dgn dapat capal satu.. wah! raya complete la you ni.

nampak kawan dia, hensem you! terpikat sekejap. iza, ingat hamza...

waktu nak balik, ammar call. dia pun kat geylang. so 2nd round la kita kat situ.. ammar datang dgn an. kita pergi ke TKC. An nak beli contact lens. aku pun nak seh beli, tapi hamza tak suka aku pakai.. jadi simpan aje la hasrat tu.. dah beli, aku masuk kedai kasut. tak nak beli la konon nye, but i can't resist buying.. abang bayarkan la tapi.. thanks!! the shoe perfect la kan org kata.. not to flashy, and the height is perfect for me.. cantik la..

after that, pergi tempat makan pulak.. beli la makanan yg tak penting tu sume.. aku dah tak tahan mata, mintak balik la.. fuh! tak sedar masuk rumah kul 12 tepat. mcm cinderella seh. yg best nye, mama tak marah!! :) seronok. siap cakap malam ni baik aku gi lagi, mana tau barang2 lagi murah.. haha!! lain mcm aje..

and today.. tolong si easmael kemas bilik dia.. busuk seh.. haha.. tapi skrg dah wangi.. puik ah. haha!!

ok, post yg malam nanti utk bermaafan pulak.. so stay tune tau.. bye!!

sealed with a kiss
5:35 AM

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

siapa tengok enot tadi?? best kan.. kesian org2 yg mcm enot tu kan.. utk sesiapa yg tak kenal enot tu, dia adalah character dlm sebuah cerita, dia perempuan gemuk yg tak ada org suka..

tengok dia, teringat akan diri aku sendiri. trust me, i've been there. aku ni memang tak kurus.. dlm category buntal jugak la kan.. so memang faham benar la perasaaan dia tu..

yg cantik2 selalu diberi perhatian kan.. yg org2 mcm kita selalu diketepikan. what touches me is that dia sukakan org tu, and org tu tak suka dia balik.. normal scenario la kan.. what makes it worst is that, org yg dia suka suro sampaikan hasrat hati kepada org yg dia suka pulak.. alamak eh.. pedih giler seh part tu.. i've been in that scenario too..

i used to like this guy so much and hoping for him eventually. but he likes other girl. and asked me to tell to that girl. wah!! hancur seh hati.. not once terkene mcm gini, twice ah beb. remuk giler hati..

abang pun hampir dia buat aku gitu.. before kita couple, he luah kan hasrat hati dia, but not to me.. dia practise utk cakap kat perempuan lain.. mcm cerita kuch kuch hota hai tu.. wah, tahan je sebak that time. si pandai ni pun, tolong siap kan dialog la kan.. hmm.. sedih seh.. when aku siap kan dialog tu, aku rasa mcm nak cakap aje yg this is specially for him.. tapi tahan aje la kan.. org tak suka kita..

during the time yg dia lost contact dgn aku tu, dia tgh ngorat perempuan ni la kan.. aku pasrah la konon.. tau2 dia kene reject la eh.. hahahahahhahahahha!! *evil smile*

kawan baik dia, fahmi cakap kat dia, mungkin jodoh kau bukan dgn si "S" ni tapi dgn org yg kau lupakan.. si hamza pun tanya la siapa seh.. fahmi jawab apa tau.. Iza.. wah!! so sweet.. heart fahmi for this.. heheheehehheehehehehehe..

itu la dia datang balik kat aku.. sampai la matair ni.. Abang, you tak mau naughty2 lagi k.. you pantang tengok perempuan cantik..

bak dlm cerita Enot.. perempuan cantik, tapi kerek buat apa kan?? hahah!

to all guys out there: be more gentle to girls. walau sebesar mana tubuh badan dia, harus diingat.. dia juga mempunyai hati.. aku pun ada hati dan perasaan tau!!

sealed with a kiss
10:30 AM

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

ini bilik aku.. ha, itu la org langsir letak kat tingkap, aku langsir letak kat dinding.. merepek kan. :)

ini mini gallery dlm bilik.. one of the mini galleries la kan.. banyak gambar yg aku ada..

ini bilik abg bujang aku. yg tercover tu, keyboard dia.. sebelah tu, drum set dia.. nampak poster tu? besar giler kan?

ini pulak hall rumah aku.. ini belum habis kemas lagi.. kerusi baldu ni dari Picket&Rail.. harga asal $4,999.. tapi as usual kalau family kita cari mesti murah nye.. kita beli for only $499. haha!

nak tengok lagi? datang la rumah raya ni..

sealed with a kiss
1:40 PM

and ya, as usual smlm after balik berbuka dgn ahli2 jawatankuasa MJ, hmm.. makan free tu, aku & hamza bertekak mcm kucing dgn anjing. wah, aku cakap dia balas, dia cakap aku balas.. sampai apa tau? dua2 dah penat, tertido kat telefon dua2. haha!! merepekz kan.. bila bangun, dua2 sorry sana sorry sini. kelakar la.

then tadi, gi delivery barangan hari raya ke rumah dia. ooih, seram gila kau. aku tak nak dia ada, so pergi senyap2 tanpa pengetahuan dia.. hehe... bila sampai, malu miaow2 bagai nak gila.. mak nye ajak masuk, tak pe la cik, saya setakat nak hantar ni aje.. mak dah siap buka.. banyak la aku nye temberang. haha! terus choot lari balik.. mug cow, merepek sia.. pengalaman pertama tu.

balik bilang mama, bagus la kau ada jugak kasi sikit2 kat family dia.. merah muka you! haha!!

now, besok nak bangun pagi utk kemas2. dia ajak kelua, tapi tak tau la.. bole kelua ke tidak ni.. kot tak jadi lagi..

nak pasang langsir agaknye.. nak pasang cushion, nak apa lagi eh..
psst.. nak tengok gazzete rumah aku tak? meh la..

alah.. post lagi satu la baru tunjuk..

sealed with a kiss
1:38 PM

sweetie pies.. i just want to let you girls know that i heart you both so much!! i know, i have not been my usual self, i don't go out often with you girls nowadays. but nevertheless, i treasure our friendship.. love you NANA & NADIAH!!

sealed with a kiss
12:00 PM