Different faces of me

Friday, March 31, 2006

assalamualaikum semua...

ewah, dah baik la aku. hehe.. well, back again after hibernating. cewah, berapa hari aje..

feeling much2 better now. isy, besok meeting kidz fiesta.. apa seh aku nak tunjukkan kat heads sume?? takut seh.

anyway, this coming weekend is somehow i'm waiting for.. banyak sgt agenda nye. ewah.. tak sabar akak.

by the way nir, you tag apa ah? tak faham sgt.. hehe. lagu sedap? abe stress?? ckp pasal stress, matair aku mana ni skrg? dr tadi tak call. haiz, dia tak call, senang aje, aku tido.. hehe.

hmm, wanna know more about me? jap eh..

Easmariza is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. Easmariza will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Easmariza an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Easmariza is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Easmariza is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

my say: ada jugak la betul.. yg part aku ni simpati kan org sgt mmg betul la.. haiz, bagus tau dpt client mcm aku.. haha! as much as i am being open-minded, tapi aku ttp ada nilai2 tradisional dlm diri.. so the part yg dia ckp she will not tolerate that is far too out.. mmg pun. jadi depan aku, jgn over ok. akak tak suka!! haha!
actually blog ni pun pasal nak blog nye pasal... haha!

dah la bye!

sealed with a kiss
9:29 AM

Sunday, March 26, 2006

this post is specially dedicated to my lovely Mama...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

i know you'll be reading this..

mama, iza tak dapat meluahkan rasa kesal iza ni di hadapan mama.. iza sungguh malu utk berdepan dgn mama.. tapi dgn serendah2 diri iza, iza memohon ampun dan maaf dari hujung rambut hingga hujung kaki iza, kerana menyakiti hati mama...

iza tau, i am not suppose to treat you that way.. iza tau bukan senang mama nak didik anak perempuan.. i knoe i am a shame to you..

i know betapa besarnya dosa seorg anak menderhaka kpd org tua.. lebih2 lagi kepada seorg ibu.

betapa susah nya seorg ibu mambawa kandungan dlm perut selama 9 bulan.. memberikan kasih sayang yg tak berbelah bagi kpd anak2 nya.. selalu mendoakan yg terbaik utk anak nya..

mama tau tak, dlm iza tulis post yg hari tu, iza nangis.. iza bagai dah tak dapat kasih sayang mama.. jarak kita bagai sudah jauh.. tapi rupa nye salah.. mama masih tetap sayang kan iza..

i am such a failure mama.. org pun cakap iza memang susah nak lentur.. iza memang tak boleh buat the slightest thing.. what i am best at is whine..

mungkin i am under stress mama.. you know how much i hated my job right? iza nak jadi berjaya.. iza nak dapat gaji yg banyak.. semua nya utk apa? dgn ikhlas iza cakap, bukan utk kahwin mama.. iza nak beri mama kesenangan.. iza nak mama hidup selesa.. iza tak suka tengok mama terkurung kat rumah aje.. iza nak belanja mama dgn ayah keluar negeri holiday..

but iza tak ada daya utk itu semua mama..

thanks sbb buka kan mata iza tentang peranan iza sebagai seorg anak.. i know i've failed you.. i dissapoint you..

and kalau abg cakap yg iza ni org nye yg tak tahu menyesal, he's wrong mama.. i'm crying alone in my room skrg ni tak ada org tau.. iza pun tak mau bilang dgn hamza pasal ni.. siapa yg nak pujuk..

mama, iza minta maaf sekali lagi mama.. as my blog is my 2nd revenue utk luahkan perasaan.. therefore, i lebih selesa luahkan kat sini..

cuma satu, i know, i will not be like Easmariza yg dulu ma.. iza dulu masih berlembut.. iza skrg hati nya dah busuk mama.. hati iza skrg dah keras.. ego iza meningkat tinggi, i am sure you are aware of that.

i am so sorry that i created trouble for you and your family.. walaupun mama memang lahirkan iza, but i dun feel part of you all anymore. ini bukan utk menjatuhkan reputasi keluarga.. but i declare myself that i no longer feel as close to you all like before..

maybe it is just me mama.. it is definitely is just me..

you all still have your bonding.. you all can still talk about things.. but not me mama.. iza takut kalau iza cakap lagi, will just create turmoil in this house.
i will still do my duty as a daughter.. will still give you money walaupun dgn gaji iza yg tak seberapa ni.. will still doakan kesejahteraan mama dan keluarga.. cuma iza dah tak rapat lagi mama.. maybe it is time for me to act as grown up and do things independently..

iza terlamapu sayangkan mama tau.. if you can read my post2 selama ini.. how i junjung you kat my blog ma.. how i salute you as a mum ma. cuma sayang sungguh mama cuma nampak iza tulis yg buruk sahaja..

dlm dunia ni, iza cuma look up to you aje.. kalau you tak suka, iza pun turut tak suka.. see how much you influence me.. sampai lagu yg mama suka, seboleh2 iza cari kan mama.. and coz i know you're reading my blog, iza letak kan lagu favourite mama ni..

you know how much i miss your cookings? you know how much i yearn to see your face everyday.. iza nak mama duduk dgn iza makan mcm mana mama duduk dgn abg eas..

kalau dia kerja, iza pun kerja mama.. masa kerja kita sama aje.. tapi tak pe la, mungkin memang salah sbb iza menjauhkan diri dari keluarga..

i've said enough.. once again, sincerely from the bottom of my heart, i apologized. iza minta maaf mama sayang.. biar iza tanggung azab api neraka sbb menderhaka dgn mama.. iza deserve that all..

itu sahaja mama..

mungkin selepas ini, jarak kita makin bertambah jauh.. but if you wanna know anything about me mama, just datang aje k kat sini..

komputer ni tempat iza mengadu.. bak kata abg pun, org2 lain pun dah naik malas dgn iza..

wassalam ma.. semoga kita dapat rapat lagi spt dulu..

dan lagi satu, selamat hari lahir ayah.. iza pun sayangkan ayah jugak.. iza lagi kurang berbual dgn ayah.. tapi iza masih sayang ayah.. tanpa mama & ayah, tak ada la iza dlm dunia ini...

tapi iza masih tetap rasa yg lebih baik sekiranya iza tak wujud langsung dlm dunia ni.. iza ni bak kuman yg menjahanamkan org lain...

sealed with a kiss
4:53 PM

i had somebody analyze my handwriting and to discover my personality.. and i guess, it is tho not perfect, but near-perfectly true.. therefore, i'll tell you bit by bit at the end of my entry ya..

so for today,

Easmariza has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

My say: i do like to play with my imagination.. sometimes my imagination run wild.. haha! i do let new ppl come into my life. but i just love being with the ppl i had in my life now.. trustworthy? you be the judge. i may seem kpo about things. but when comes to keeping ppl secret, i do keep.. so ya..

sealed with a kiss
1:59 PM

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu

yg mungkin bisa kau rindu

karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu

oh karena hati tlah letih

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu

yg selalu bisa kau sentuh

aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu

tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati

oh bayangmu seakan-akan

reff: kau seperti nyanyian dalam hati

kuyg memanggil rinduku padamu

seperti udara yg kuhela kau selalu ada

hanya dirimu yg bisa membuatku tenang

tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang

dan sepi, dan sepi

repeat reff [2x]

selalu ada, kau selalu adaselalu ada, kau selalu ada

dah tak Lemas lagi.. konon nyanyi kan utk Hamza.. haha!

sealed with a kiss
10:12 AM

you watched APM yesterday night?? in my views, this year round, it was the best APM ever.. although to the some glitches but overall it was SUPERB!

no, i didn't go to Max Pavillion.. i've quit in going for shows.. watched the event at Suria..

Congrats to all the winners. this year round, the winners varies. unlike the previous years, when an artist dah menang satu, seterusnya la dia menang.. think back when Art Fazil bagai bolot everything.. then Jai yg tak semena2 menang banyak award.. this year seems like everybody were given a chance to receive the trophy.. and i should say that the judges picked the creme of all.. i'm very much satisfied with the result..

this year the hosts pun gerek.. Aznil & Adi memang la bagus in hosting.. Fiza O & the indonesian host pun best. the indon lady is soooooo swweeeettt.. cute seh!

here's the good & bad parts of the show yesterday..

1. when Ello won the Penyanyi Baru Lelaki Terbaik, his "world" actually tumbled off from the hand.. asal eh? ni kes tak check dulu eh? kesian seh.. mesti malu kan dia.. nasib baik dia pandai cover.. Satisfied with the award.

2. Opening performances dia baik.. pandai amek VE dgn Ahli Fiqir as an opening acts. mula je dah energetic.. mesti throughout pun baik jugak..

3. group paling best sampaikan award, Ello, Mawi & Taufik, pandai kan Mawi buat kelakar.. tak sangka seh.. and Mawi won the Lagu Paling Popular and Taufik won the Penyanyi lelaki Popular.. Satisfied with the awards..

4. Performance paling entertaining, Mawi & Taufik Gadis Melayu.. paling best sekali.. terpekik terlolong aku kat rumah.. rasa mcm ada dlm panggung jugak..

5. Medley by Vince, Eka, Adam, Nikki. if you notice when Vince semangat joget, he accidently terlanggar mic Adam sampai jatuh.. malu no.2 utk APM this year..

6. Ratu singing Teman tapi mesra.. nasib baik diorg kurus kan.. pakai baju gitu pun org tak marah.. mcm baby doll dua2. energetic performance.

7. Loloq won the Anugerah Khas.. i like him won. but my parents said that actually they should let our own Yusnor Ef to win the award.. ya la, he's old and maaf2 cakap, alah.. paham aje la kan.. kalau tak kasi skrg takut tak dapat bagi terus.. should make Loloq win at the upcoming APM..

8. Nurul & Ajai duet Serasi.. lagu memang power.. eh? Nurul Ngandung eh? anyway, asal la Ajai gi tindik telinga eh? i know la, they are rich already but jgn la lupa daratan.. takut indah hanya sementara. he should be reminded that his wealth and talent ada la anugerah Tuhan.. but not only to Ajai alone la.. but to all the male singers..

9. Siti being teased about being a Datin.. hehe. ppl sebenarnye suka ke tak ni, Siti kalau kahwin dgn Datuk K? tunggu aje la masa k.

10. medley utk Lagu Terbaik serious ah this year.. kalau last year nye best.. Saiful Apek buat kelakar..

11. halfway through Dayang sing the medley for Loloq, tetiba technical problem pulak.. ni mesti kes org sabo tau. tak pun, abg2 camera man kita terpijak wire. malu no.3

12. Anugerah paling best! Lagu Terbaik - Dealova.. i love that song!!

13. Anugerah paling sedih.. Album Terbaik - Chrisye. sedih seh when tau Chrisye sakit.. hopefully dia pulih balik la.. lagu2 dia power!!

ada siapa2 nak add??

hmm.. teringat zaman dolu2 gi tengok APM..

1st year tak gi.. kawan2 bastard aku tak ajak.. diorg gi senyap2.

2nd year, pergi dgn Nadiah.. kita the 1st to line up tau! best sekali.. that time belum ada no. seat lagi.. Free seating. itu yang thrill nak chop tempat depan2. haha! and we got to sit 3rd row from the stage.. best seh..

3rd year, pergi kat KL pulak.. sanggup seh.. Gi Bukit Jalil.. besar seh stadium dia.. Jumpa Tam Spider.. hehe.. this time jugak la kenal dgn Phyne Ballerz.

4th year gi kat Singapore Expo.. dah ada seating.. tak berapa best sgt la dat time.. coz nak Hazrul Nizam menang tapi tak.. at last aku tertido seh kat sana.. Boring sgt..

5th year, tak pergi dan tak tengok pun..

this year, paling best! waktu best, tak pulak aku pergi..

hehe.. aku berbual ni mcm wartawan hiburan pulak eh kasi2 komen.. hehe.. okla, enjoy la the song yg dinobatkan sebagai LAGU TERBAIK APM 2006, DEALOVA.

sealed with a kiss
9:35 AM

Saturday, March 25, 2006

okay, wanna update yesterday's event..

Hyrul Anuar visited our school yesterday.. best seh. kelakar jugak si dek tu.. very friendly and caring towards the children.. he talked about what his dreams and who is he when he was still a kid. the children love it so much!

he sang for us 3 songs.. Hanya Memuji, Kata & I believe i can fly.. suara dia sedap seh. baru aku sedar.. tapi sedih ah Khairil tk ada.. dia tunggu luar aje.

dr kul 9 sampai kul 12 dia ada kat situ.. dia makan sume.. yg cute nye dia makan kat pantry kita.. haha! apa aje.. dia nampak aku mop muntah.. malu seh. hey, but that's what we do every day what.. tak penting la..

okay, kita tengok gambar k..

him singing Hanya Memuji..

kanak2 menyanyi lagi Pop Yeh Yeh.. haha!

me & my partner with the Juara anugerah himself.. haha! kentalz..

and yah, so that it is.. siapa lagi artis nak datang??

tadi, kawan ku, zainab & kak nurul, dtg interview kerja. buat apa seh diorg?? but seriously, aku happy sekali nampak diorg.. tak sabar nak jumpa diorg lagi this 1st April.. kak nurul dah 4 tahun tak nampak aku, kata aku kurus.. haha! buat kelakar keapa? ada patut dia kata aku pakai corset? gila ke apa? hehe..

k la, itu aje la.. besok2 gua update lagi..

sealed with a kiss
12:01 PM

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

it's the 21st right?? HAPPY 19th MONTH-AVERSARY sayang.. hehe.. lagi 5 months to the 24th. woohoo! tak penting seh..

what do we do today? intend to jalan2 only la kan.. but end up, aku kat rumah dia pulak.. oooi, buat apa agaknye..

actually, today is his baba's bday.. so we celebrated there.. best kan? they did a suprise party for her.. and when dia kelua, nampak aku, his aunts says that this is the suprise.. hehe. malu ah. when nenek dia tanya siapa ni, diorg cakap cucu menantu.. alahai.. malu ah.

ada makan2 la kan.. aku tengok naik seram.. ye la.. org tgh diet.. hehe... ah, bedal aje la.. baru habis buat senaman..

aniwei b, thanks ya for everything all this while... LOVE YOU!

sealed with a kiss
1:27 PM

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

dah berapa lama org dengar aku nak diet? wahaha! fear no more coz i'm on my journey in losing some pounds.. yah!

but i dun go to the extreme, i still eats. only now, i limit myself to something healthy.

for lunch, i've been having fruit salad only. been few days already. for dinner, i'll just have any dish that my mum has cooked, minus the rice. and only have it in small serving.. if, i feel like eating so much, i'll just cook my oats. cool huh?

hehe.. tak sangka seh i made this decision. seronok jugak la rasanya. but the godaan, fuh! jgn cakap ah.. the pisang goreng memanggil2 aje, the chocolates.. aduh! jgn cakap la.. and maybe my body system is trying to get used to this kind of routine, i've seen double aje.. my eyesight mcm joking2 gitu. the giddiness won't fade. haiya, tahan ok? hehe..

and so, the 1st day of the term.. mak eih, lengit to the ma seh. badan banyak....malas. nak kata aku rehat banyak, tak pun.. tetap buzy ulang alik course.. belum dapat momentum dia la.. haha! sabar2 aje la..

TEACHERS!! I NEED YOUR SCRIPT FOR KIDZ FIESTA! YOU'RE BEHIND TIME ALREADY!!

ceh, mcm notice board pulak aku nye blog ni.. ok la.. ciow dulu..

sealed with a kiss
12:17 PM

Sunday, March 19, 2006

as i'm writing this post.. i'm actually missing my friends dearly.. friends from my secondary life till my work colleague.

yesterday, i dreamt of my best friend in school, Syahida.. told her about it. in school, she's like a sister to me. i always confide in her if i have any problem. we will have our recess together.. but sadly, we have to parted ways..

i have loads of dear friends in school.. but where are thou? aku rindu la.. whenever i'm alone, i will reminisce the moments we had together in school. how we skipped school just to act in our self-made movie, how we were reprimanded for throwing a birthday party for a friend in school.. mana tak nye, kita simbah air and basah kan sekolah.. haha! how we were always being the rascals in school.. banyak lagi la..

and everytime i visited my school, i will stand infront of the classroom and as though i've seen us again.. where i'm sitting, where i will always hide my "illegal" things.. and w/o me realizing tears rolled down my cheek. i miss those moments. seriously..

*wiping off tears*

i even miss my guy friends which i .. i dun have a lot. seriously.. i only have about 3 in my entire life?

fir, my bro, my buddy, my confidante.. how he always there for me.. who will always be the 1st person to wish me luck in whatever exams i took. who will be the 1st person to concern if he noes i'm sick.. and so on.. now, i pray for his well-being and all the best in everything he does..

***, my friend.. who i knoe will confide in me in every relationship problems that he had.. i wll be his listening ear.. hehe.. hey, i still remember you treated me ice-cream.. thanks hor! his dreams is to join the police force.. may the force be with you ha..

still, you guys rock! but my bf now rockers! haha!

and last but not least.. my colleagues.. had my dinner with my 2 besties after visiting our mdm in hospital.. i dunno, today after dinner i decided to go home & didn't follow them out.. and as we parted ways, and i'm in the bus.. tears just kept welling in my eyes. i feel like i'm going to lose them soon.. why? i love them.. must they go from me??

*wiping off tears*

so sayang, now you noe what i feel when i always say that i do not want to lose you? coz i hold dearly ppl that have been in & out of my life.. moreover if they are close to me.. and right now, you are the closest person in my life. therefore, if ever you have to leave me, imagine on how my life will be..

and i will never get enough of saying I LOVE YOU to you..

sealed with a kiss
2:35 PM

Friday, March 17, 2006

alah.. dah nak balik kerja ke?? tak nak ah.. malas la.. malas nak kerja lagi.. bole tak? sape2 ada duit? nak pinjam..

hmmm, end of class this week with makan2. best seh. ya, lupa nak bilang.. smlm kitorg lunch kat tekka.. makan tosei! power to the ma punya.. menjilat jari seh.. ajak sayang gi, ada aje alasan dia.. so, bawak la kawan2 gi sana.. dia nye briyani pun, gunung seh.. banyak giler.. ayam masala dia, fuh! tak terangkat beb.

and hari ni, kita lunch kat liang seah st. aku makan shredded chicken mushroom noodle. itu kalau kasi aku bermangkuk2 pun, aku bole habiskan la.. sedap!!

sayang, i nak makan lagi la tu.. can right? bole la.... nak sgt.... dah tak nak makan karipap lagi.. nak shredded chicken noodle..... puh-leeeeeze...

pencuci mulut kita- sushi.. hehe. berkoyan sushi kita makan.. so heavenly.. hehe..

ha, siapa ada berkeping2 duit 1000 ni, sila call aku k.. nak sikit la.. isy, gembira hati aku dapat pegang duit ni.. bukan selalu seh.. haiz, bila la impian menjadi kenyataan kan..

sealed with a kiss
12:06 PM

Thursday, March 16, 2006

lemas ku dalam dakapanmu
tidak ku sangka kau tertipu
inikah lumrah orang bercinta
tiada ruang nafasnya

lemas ku dalam pelukanmu
tidak ku sangka kau begitu
inikah ertinya bercinta
berikan ruang agarku selesa

memang dia orangnya
mulanya memang sempurna
tiada yang buruk darinya
bahagia sentiasa dirasa ohh..

tapi kini dah berubah
yang indah jadi derita
aku resah gelisah
yang tinggal hanyalah sakit dan peritnya

kini aku mula sedari
apa yang telah terjadi
diriku dibebani bayanganmu
tapi itu semua dulu
memang ku tidak mahu teruskan percintaan ini bersamamu

(bukan kubenci...) kepadamu
(bukan kubenci...) oh watakmu percayalah kataku...aku rimas, aku lemas
(bukan kubenci...) cemburumu
(bukan kubenci...) kau ekori ku percayalah kataku...aku rimas, aku lemas

sealed with a kiss
2:37 PM

haha! belum pun concert Jason Mraz start, aku dah tukar lagu lagi.. siapa yg tak tau kan.. hehe.. rasa2 nye, semenjak pakai skin ni, tak pernah kan aku letak lagu melayu? so now is the perfect time...

well, ladies & gentlemen, presenting.....

RUFFEDGE with LEMAS.....

*clap hands*

hehe, terasa mcm nak letak la lagu ni.. sedap kan? *i knoe* tengok la siapa yg minat..

aku tau org mesti tak percaya kan yg 1 time dulu aku rapat dgn diorg lagi2 dgn The Man - Mr Azan Addin!

ya, time tu aku ada tulis yg PB ada datang rumah.. now aku cakap pulak pasal RE. but seriously, try tanya azan kalau dia ada kenal dgn org nama Iza.. konsperm dia cakap dia tau.. coz aku la yg tolong dia utk dapat kan no. singapore dia.. aku la yg bersusah payah beli kan dia prepaid sbb dia nak.. aku la org yg dia cari waktu dia nak gi toilet *oops* hehe.. alah.. dah lama la tu.. nak masuk 2 tahun pun..

meh, kita tatap gambar2 aku & mereka..

aku bersama Zain.. tangan belakang tu Amer nye.. catch him act in Castello ok?

okay, ni dgn mamat hensem satu ni.. Amer Munawer..

dgn pria pujangga - cat .. manja nye.. isy, ni sebelum matair dgn hamza..

gambar kenangan.. Iza & Azan Addin..

i meet up with them kat beach road.. ya, went shopping with them.. best gak ah.. surely had fun that time.. jadi popular sekejap. ye la, tau2 aje la.. makcik2 kalau ada nampak org biasa dgn artis, diorg extra baik dgn kita... cit!

and last year bila aku accident, azan called up.. dia kata dia nak jumpa aku.. but sedih seh.. i cannot walk and tangan berbalut.. dia cakap
"tak pe ma, you rest okay.. tangan awak ada luka hitam tak? ada kan? itu awak jaga betul2.. letak minyak gamat. awak ada tak minyak tu? letak insya Allah baik. kesian, tangan awak yg putih tu dah ada parut.."

aku dengar, cair beb.. yg pelik nye, he called me "ma". in actual fact, dia panggil aku iza. mana datang "ma" tu? hehe..

hmm, but memory will always be memory right? now, dgn ada nye hamza to guide aku, aku dah tak ingat lagi la pasal ni sume.. dah lupa kan pun yg kita pernah rapat..

now between me & them hanya la sebagai seorg artis & peminat.. aniway, enjoy the song ya..

sealed with a kiss
1:05 PM

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

had my module 2 exam in the morning just now.. hmm, ok2 la. susah jugak. walaupun 3 questions aje and open-book, nak cari answers punye la lengit. ye la, answer application. aku lupa la kan.. but hopefully i make it through la..

ingat habis lambat la, but sekejap aje.. so apa lagi balik la.. kemas2 bilik hari ni.. dah mcm bilik pengantin dah.. haha! aku bastard. bulan 8 ni, abg aku nak tunang and they will use my room to put the barang2 hantaran. hmm.. ingat senang2 ke aku nak kasi chance? aku gi blow up gambar2 aku yg solo and bersama hamza tinggal nak frame aje.. siap kau. ini menunjukkan bahawasanya, bilik aku adalah bilik aku.. haha! mesti bingit diorg kan? pergi mampz. aku nak buat gallery dlm bilik nanti. siap dah order lampu dari bangkok. haha!

jahat nye aku.. ini la balasan nye sbb selalu compare2 aku dgn bakal tunang dia tu.. baru dia tau siapa Iza sebenarnye.. hee3.

tak la jahat sgt.. ni secara tak sengaja. aku nak revamp balik bilik ni. jadi terkene pulak dgn banda tunang ni, coincidence la kan..

baby sakit hari ni.. tu la, smlm action makan steamboat tak ingat org.. ppl dah warning benda tu pedas nak mampz, you degil, cekik jugak.. anyway, get well soon sayang.. i nak kelua dgn you... hee3.

and yessa, from monday - thursday aku course. tapi tak la best sgt.. sbb tak tau nak makan mana.. kelua duit seh.. itu yg benci. then friday dah start kerja. and next week dah jumpa budak2. tak nak la.. nak rest lagi...... aku tak de cuti tau!

tengok la muka stress sume org.. bole tengok buku tau, tetap stress.

sealed with a kiss
11:14 AM

Monday, March 13, 2006

tiring but fun.. tiring but worthful. start my day with picnic with Sayang's family.. *malu seh* dgn sdra mara dia sume.. mana akak nak letak muka. but his family is very receptive. Alhamdulillah.. i enjoyed so much the breeze. i have always love chilling by the sea.. hehe..

then we continue with the dinner with MJ. fuyo! makan tak ingat org.. bill up to 200++ bayangkan tu apa yg kita makan? haha!

didn't take any pictures.. sayang seh. hmm..

aniwei right sayang.. i enjoyed ur company. feel so blessed. haha! love you..

sealed with a kiss
2:16 PM

Sunday, March 12, 2006

bloghopping to one blog to the other blog.. ye la, memang aku tak ada kerja.. isy, maju budak2 skrg kan?

tak satu2. i find it interesting baca pasal diorg ni.. yg aku anggap budak lagi.. haha! jgn marah ye..akak, tak bermaksud nak menyindir.. cuma tercuit hati membaca. maksud budak tu, yg masih belum tau, perit nye kehidupan sebenar, yg belum tau apa itu maknanya back-stabbing, yg belum tau mcm mana nak cari duit.. haiz.. kesian2. lama lagi korang nak jejak ke alam tu kan??

ada tu yg belum pun 16 tahun, dah bertukar2 pasangan.. ramai nye ex korang.. haha! sbb korang dan partner belum matang la, sbb tu selalu break.. and sanggup pulak cari yg baru.. konon2 tu, yg baru ni lagi memahami.. mana la kita tau kan? kalau la aku dpt kembali ke alam yg itu, aku nak habis kan duit mak bapak aku saving lepas tu travel dgn kawan2. sbb itu yg aku buat.. pergi ke Australia, Jakarta, KL jgn cakap la, berapa banyak kali aku gi holiday situ dgn kawan2 pun tak tau. renungkan la.. memang budak2 skrg makin cantik makin hensem, bermakna makin banyak la gejala sosial pun berlaku..

apa agaknye budak2 ni buat dgn so-called partner diorg eh? dating kat library kot.. haha! aku dgn sayang yg berduit ni pun, tak tau nak gi mana kalau dating.. paling2 turun masai aje la.. enjoy! hehe....

and to tell you the truth, hitting the clubs ain't gonna make you mature. it just make you stupid. jolly well fool. dancing in the crowd with the smokey atmosphere and drinking coke that cost you a bomb. no, aku tak pernah gi.. but dengar cerita aje la.. yg minum coke, ok.. but yg minum kencing setan tu, lagi la.. not implying to nobody but just generally.

belum lepas O level, dah nak terfikir nak kahwin.. haha! kelakar2. aku waktu musim2 sekola, tak ada chance tu pun.. untung korang dpt mak bapak sporting. hehe.. tapi konfem ni pun ada matair sembunyi dari mak bapak.. haha!

okay, some ppl might argue with me that age does not matter. and the way you thinks matters most. memang la, tak nafikan.. aku kenal dgn org2 yg kenal mmg dari zaman skola sampai jugak ke jinjang pelamin.. spt, kak shay n saiful, kak mas & abg nizam, kak imah & abg yazid, kak ayu & abg hammad, kak aida & abg reza dll.. tengok ramai jugak. but not before you all rasa heart pain and rasa sengsara dulu.. betui tak?? diorg start serious pun rasa2 lepas dah lepas legal age. haha! kahwin jugak..

kalau age does not matter, kenapa waktu beli rokok, kene 18 tahun ke atas? haha!

kalau la time aku dulu, (ceh, mcm la lama nah) konfem da kene sound dgn mama, *seluar dlm mak bapak masih beli kan, ada hati nak ada matair..* haha! kekek aku ingat time tu.. betul jugak, da la mak bapak yg kasi allowance, ni nak gi kelua suka2 dgn matair pulak.. haha!

apa lagi eh, oh.. aku tengok friendster budak2 skola alsagoff. eh best eh korang skrg.. ada excursion gi mana tu, FIRE STATION.. jumpa mamat2 CD. power seh.. kita dulu excursion gi mana eh? toilet je la.. haha! tak.. siapa kata akak jeles.. :(

kalau dulu, strict nak mampz. tak leh gi tempat yg ada lelaki.. haram. nasib la baik batch aku tak ada yg jadi lesbian. haha! lagi la tunggang terbalik..

hmmmmmmmmmmm... B, adik2 sume dah nak sehidup semati, kita bila lagi? hehe.. lama la kan.. duit pun tak cukup lagi.. aku nak accomplish mission dulu baru nak kahwin.. mission apa? hanya aku dan sayang aje yg tau..

tak nafikan, mungkin ada akak2 yg senior aku yg baca blog aku kata aku pun masih budak lagi.. tak pasal! asal kan aku dah ada saving dan tak minta duit mak bapak aku kalau nak kelua pak-to. haha! nak dikirakan, electric dlm bilik aku ni pun aku yg bayar.. apa korang nak cakap?

dah la.. hehe.. kelakar2.

once again, ni general ok. bukan utk sesiapa.. aku menulis pun aku merasa..

sealed with a kiss
12:12 PM

didn't go anywhere, didn't do anything.. juz lazing around at home. so bored lei..
changed the song AGAIN! this will be my last song feat. Jason Mraz. and the song featured now titled "plane".

sealed with a kiss
7:09 AM

Saturday, March 11, 2006

e eh, holiday ke? best nye!! best ke hape? org cuti, aku skola.. dah la tu, kene kerja. haiya!

anihoos, suka la jugak sbb tak ada budak2 nak jaga.. rilek mat kojek aje.. but sekejap aje la kan.. seminggu aje. cit!

penat giler seh tadi. mcm nak mampos. 1st session, aku semangat bulu nye mengajar.. masuk 2nd session, aku da malas. tapi tetap on jaga budak and finishing up everything. masuk 3rd session, aku dah angkat bendera putih... gua dah tak leh angkat lagi beb. aku sampai terbaring giler babi nye kat cozy corne rdlm class. haha! sedap lagi dgn air-con. kalau la bilik aku mcm klas aku, tak ada la aku nak merayap selalu..

wah! dis sunday ada makan2 dgn MJ la. lama seh tak makan sesama. occasion nye ialah, ANNIVERSARY MarJuana!! best kan? so kita sume sambut sesama. katanya ada kejutan bakal berlaku.. but to tell you the truth right.. saya dah tau pun apa tu.. hehe.. hmm.. lagi monday ada exam. though open book, lengit aku nak belajar. apa lagi eh? mcm2 lagi la..

sesiapa nak belanja aku makan? haha! lapar giler ni. balik siang tapi tak ada makan. apa hal ni..

tadi kak jaja ada kasi gambar kat friendster. lama tak jumpa dia.. tup2 dah nak kahwin pun dia..

ismaliza & easmariza

nama kita bole nak seakan2 sama kan? hehe.. cuma spelling dan pronunciation aje lain.

okie, time utk gambar2 overdue..

bersama kawan2 gerek kat skola..

at Pasir Ris Park with my children.. da mcm amek gambar class pulak..

me with my ever darling.. Md Ezekiel Zaidanie.. heart him a LOT! dah besau dah dia..

me with Iman, Kikiel's best friend and my 2nd darling.. haha!
last but not least.. me with Isaac... hmmm.

sealed with a kiss
1:05 PM

Thursday, March 09, 2006

i love my sayang for sure.. love him so much.. why???

broke the news to him about my involvement ( and as the in-charge ) for the kidz fiesta. he was upset for sure. he never liked me getting involve in this event. had some serious talk with him.. explained to him everything.. talked about stepping down even.

coz for me, whatever i do, i would want these 2 ppl "restu". who are they? my mum & him.. if either one didn't like me doing something, i might as well don't do it at all. i want to see them happy. when they're happy, i am even more so happy.

so, he insisted on me dropping down everything.. and i requested it..

but, my sayang realized something, by doing this, he is actually depriving me. and he took me to his arms, looked in my eyes and said this lovingly... *aww*

" i want you to be the in-charge for the Fiesta. i want to see you excel. make ur boyfriend proud. and this year, i want to attend the event. i want to see my girlfriend's event.."

not only mine but all the ICs.

immediately tears rolled down my cheeks. never expected him to say those sweet things. that is what i've been longing for. him accepting my job..

Sayang, thanks for letting me handle this thing ya. i owe you one. and i will show you what i can do baby.. give me your support. i need that. you're my motivation.

he said that why he didn't like me taking more charge coz he knows that being a teacher is a stressful job. mentally & physically. moreover me taking the diploma, being the co-ordinator for K1 level and more so.. so ya...

Sayang, you are so sweet.. really sweet. and i love you more as the days goes by..

Kidz Fiesta 2006, here I come..

sealed with a kiss
1:35 PM

Monday, March 06, 2006

i envy beatiful ladies.. i envy them so much. they can get away with anything & everything. if there's something cocked up in their life, it is their own fault not others. but still, nobody would ever notice. EVER!

but to ppl like me, we need to gain the trust, the love, the respect, the dignity and the list goes on...

if ever something cocked up, we are blamed, we are the one at fault and we were made to admit for the wrongdoings that we did not do..

so tell me, is life indeed unfair or is it just ME?

out to do some soul searching.. beautiful girls were smiling sheepishly whenever guys look at them. me? i'm invisible.

i lose out in this world of bias. ppl bias towards this & towards that.

out, feeling damn so sad..

sealed with a kiss
8:38 AM

Sunday, March 05, 2006

well, changed my song again.. but still from my darling Mr Mraz.. haha! this time is his song - Bella Luna.

mak eih, sedap seh.. sekali dengar ada ala2 2D irama muzik dia.. tapi kalau amat2 lagu ni, sikit2 makna nye mcm lagu..

di wajah mu, ku lihat bulan....

haha!

cut the crap la eh. isy, i didn't blog much this week eh? busy ah.. busy apa, comp asek rosak2 aje.

ok, so it's finalise..

i am the in-charge for this year's Kidz Fiesta for Tampines Branch. ewah! seram seh.. coz, this is the event yg akan menguji ketahanan minda, fizikal sume.. for the past years, many tears have been shed.. mcm mana la kalau aku nanti kan? kalau Tampines tak tunjukkan yg terbaik, aku la yg kene.. kene pulak si gembeng ni, nangis tetap nangis ni..

wah! i've been given a difficult task ya. pray for me that i bersemangat dlm buat benda ni. coz all of them depend on my leadership..

ya Allah, kuatkan la tenaga ku ini..

okie, enuff of that. tadi kat class, we discovered something interesting.. dengar2 khabar kan, org2 yg dibawah umur 21 tak bole sign contract sebenarnye. it is declared. so, yg selama aku sign2 ni, besar kemungkinan, tak valid.. kalau betul, aku bole cabut seh.. hehe..

ok la, banyak jugak bebel ni.. itu aje la.

sealed with a kiss
9:25 AM