Different faces of me

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

i report sick again today.. sakit lagi..... sakit rindu agaknye.. dapat mc sampai besok..
went to polyclinic with ayah just now.. he accompanied me. so sweet right? sbb takut anak dia ni jatuh ke, menggatal dgn doctor ke.. haha! tunggu lama la kan..
when da jumpa doctor, kene tanya byk soalan by the doc.. i will not forget the conversation sbb doctor freak me out!! seram beb!

doc: ok easmariza, what's ur problem?

me: oh.. i kept throwing up the past two days, i am very weak.. last night, i had high fever and today morning my whole body is aching..

doc: u also had bad sore throat i see..

me: yes.. and headache.

doc: which part?

me: the right side.. and does there any connection with my neck? cause it is very painful..

doc: ummm... i think u have serious problem..

so he start checking my pulse, he massaged my neck and i feel nauseous.
he sat down back..

doc: easmariza, may i ask you something? have you had ur menses?

me: yes, regularly. (though i know, i have irregular menses)

doc: when's ur last menses?

me: last month. (i didn't even realise that today marks the end of THIS month)

doc: which period?

me: this period.. around this time.. (i still forget)

doc: (smiling) could there be any possibility that u're pregnant? (na'uzubillah)

me: sial la doctor. no la!! cannot be! eh doctor, u dun think i'm pregnant don't you?

doc: u sure? u did not have some "physical activity" with ur boyfriend or something?

me: fuck sia.. no la! (dlm hati) sial la ni doctor..

so he asked me to lie down.. check my tummy.. and CONFIRM with me that i'm NOT PREGNANT!

he gave me two days mc and confirm that i just had a very very bad flu.. so in total, i have 4 days straight mc.. mcm duduk kat hospital pulak...

oh ya, yesterday.. a friend of me called me up.. Fai.. he got to know that i'm sick. da cakap2 semua, dia tanya..

fai: iza, u kenal dgn budak nama iryani tak? she claimed that she know you..

me: siapa seh tu? tak kenal pun..

fai: she told me something about you, but i tak nak percaya bulat2.
me: cerita apa ni.. best ke?

fai: dia kata, u're going out with this budak motor.. and right now u're choosing between nak pilih that guy or with another guy.. in other word, she said mcm u ni playgirl la..

me: woah!! me? i mana nye jambu seh fai yg dia nak kata i gitu..
(she also said that i'm short and fat)

fai: ntah la iza.. dia kata dia ada kenal dgn kawan i nama easma..

haha! nice try IRYANI! whoever you are.. try better next time ya.. maybe you just viewed my profile or my blog right now! and kalau nak tipu pun, jgn la pakai nama aku k.. aku nye org memilih nak kawan dgn sape.. nak kawan dgn nama iryani? oh puhleeze, tak ada class la nama tu.. da pandai kata aku gemuk pendek.. ada hati nak kata aku playgirl.. skrg make up ur mind ah.. playgirl selalu kan yg cantik kan? so u wanna say that aku ni cantik? wow!! thanks.. anyway, aku ni
tak mati dek keji, tak hidup dek puji la eh..

sealed with a kiss
7:54 PM

Monday, January 29, 2007

hello everybody... how's life ya? hehe... i'm on mc for today and tomorrow.. i passed out in school just now. i threw up badly.. i shivered.. semua org takut sbb tak pernah nampak aku mcm gini.. muntah penuh satu jamban kau... haha! thanks to diana, mdm and kak mas for sending me to the clinic... and most thanks for the free bill.. haha! i didn't need to pay anything including my taxi fare... awww.. so sweet!!

wondering why am i sick like this.. to tell u the truth, i didn't sleep the whole night.. pasal apa? pasal dia la.. he make me awake the whole night.. and i'm too stressed out maybe.. stressed? after the shopping spree? hehe... well, last weekend is the best shopping getaway for me..

1st destination, Marina Square.. we stopped at Giordano, bought some crew neck tee.. he paid for himself.. next we went to Crocs.. thought of buying one for myself but i look stupid in it.. so we went to Nike, bought for him Nike Polo Tee... so nice!! next door, is the Creative store.. Creative V 2 gb for only $129? apa lagi? grab ah satu... penat berjalan, makan kat Secret Recipe.. am not going to dine in there again..
next, went in to URS, he paid for my wedge... it is soooo nice!!!

next stop is Bugis Village.. so i bought myself a nice blouse.. not one but two!! cantik giler kau.. at last ada jugak kedai yg jual baju senonoh at a very affordable price and it's at BUGIS!! can u believe it? mesti tak kan? haha! so penat, balik.. bam tido..

sunday nye, went to Parkway Parade with mama.. masih mood shopping ni.. so 1st ingat nak gi Charles & Keith.. tapi pasal rasa mcm tak perlu, kita gi la ke basement... tak sangka ada sesuatu yg menunggu. CHARLES & KEITH"S SALE!!!! wahhhhhh!!! i bought myself another pair of shoe and a tote bag..

yg yellow from c&k.. vogue kan colour? teka harga kasut tu berapa? $14.90 jek... yg sebelah nye from URS.. $36.90.. the bag for $10..

aduh! i love shopping.. satisfy my craving to Auntie Annie's pretzel.. yummy! eat like pig at banquet.. and up we go to Aussino.. bought for my mum bantal.. cute kan aku.. haha!

today sakit mcm nak mampos.. but... maybe going out to meet my bestie!! maybe onliee...

will update again later ya.. bye!!

sealed with a kiss
3:40 PM

Sunday, January 21, 2007

the song is dedicated to him.. *sigh*

Ada sesuatu ingin kukatakan
Kuharap engkau dapat mengertikan
Selama ini dirimu kusayang
Walaupun kau tidak percaya
Tak guna aku memaksa dirimu
Untuk percaya segala kataku
Kiranya engkau fahami hatiku
Tentunya kau akan menyedari
Aku merasa sungguh indah bersamamu tiap waktu
Kita bermesra... marah dan sayang
Rajuk dan rindu
Walaupun kita pernah merasa terluka dan terkilan
Namun hatiku masih menyintaimu sayang
Alangkah indah kehidupan ini
Seandai engkau terus bersamaku
Kiranya aku menyinggung hatimu
Maafkan diriku... oh sayang
Aku merasa sungguh indah bersamamu tiap waktu
Kita bermesra... marah dan sayang
Rajuk dan rindu
Walaupun kita pernah merasa terluka dan terkilan
Namun hatiku masih menyintaimu... sayang
Alangkah indah kehidupan ini
Seandai engkau terus bersamaku
Kiranya aku menyinggung hatimu
Maafkan diriku... oh sayang
Andainya aku hilang di matamu
Ingatku dalam doamu......

sealed with a kiss
12:44 PM

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Salam ma'al hijrah semua... hope that semua org dlm keadaan yg bahagia... semoga tahun baru ini, kita dukurniakan kekuatan utk menjalani hari2 yg penuh mencabar ini..

aku? i started my tahun baru with tears and lotsa tears.. i dunno if i made a wise decision, but this is the best solution.. i just ended up my relationship again... :(
yes friends... me&him has ended again our relationship.. nothing worked out for both of us..

i don't want to delete off the previous post.. let it be.. it's the last time that we met... i want to make it my best memory.. seeing him happy, him kissing my forehead.. akan tetap bersemadi di hati ini..

no doubt, i do and still love him, but da tak de jodoh.. aku pasrah...

and no, if you think that i'm going back with him, so sorry.. i am not.. my chapter with him da tutup pada tahun ni.. i'm opening up a new chapter in my life...

Hamza, walaupun iza terpaksa membuat keputusan ini.. iza sebenarnya masih sayang kan hamza.. iza da fikir masak2 ttg ini. iza dan hamza tak bole bahagia.. iza dan hamza tak serasi bersama.. iza da tak tahan menjadi pungguk rindukan bulan... iza da tak tahan dimarah selalu.. selama ini iza telan sahaja, selama ini iza diam sahaja.. iza turutkan apa sahaja kemahuan hamza.. jadi, iza harap, hamza dapat la terima kenyataaan yg kita da tak bersama lagi.. seperti yg iza cakap utk kali terakhir kat hamza tadi, jaga lah diri hamza baik2 ye.. mungkin dgn pengunduran diri iza, hamza dapat mengecapi bahagia semula.....

sealed with a kiss
9:32 PM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Happy 22nd birthday Baby!!! hehe.. he's 22 yesterday.. and this yr is the 3rd yr i celebrated his bday.... the 1st year, i bought him baju.. mcm budak2 skrg belikan matair hadiah.. bila aku bloghopped, bday jek belikan baju, bday je belikan shirt.. haha! his bday cake, Swensen's ice-cream cake.. like so normal gitu.. celebrated kat masai with my MJ family... the next year, baked for him brownie for his cake, bought for him PSP, ewah.. da maju la kan.. beli hadiah mahal banyak.. celebrated 2 days, satu with MJ the next day with his family... but this yr, we make it like very simple coz he "accidently" scheduled his working day on his BIRTHDAY!! i don't know how far is the truth but ya.. so be it.

aku pulak habis kerja lambat waktu bday dia... haiz. which cause him & myself land in a slight argument but everythin is settled upon me reaching under his void deck..

his prezzie da lama ku belikan only his bday 'cake' lambat sampai coz i ordered from Famous Amos.. so that's why da la lambat habis kerja, nak collect cake lagi.. taxi tetiba tak de.. kene naik bus.. haiz..

so bila da sampai blok dia, called him up and he meet me kat bawah.. dis yr, tak leh naik rumah sbb ada la sbb2 tertentu.. jadi kita act romantic kat bawah kolong blok je la.. aku datang dgn bday cake and he was kinda surprise with it. coz aku ckap, i tak ada bawak apa2 utk you tau dis yr, coz budget lari.. and he said, it's ok.. i pun tak minta pape.. banyak la you!! haha.. that's his cake kat atas tu. sedaap betul cake nye..

then start muka tak malu nye... ini2 aje ke dia tanya.. haha! expect jugak la aku kasi hadiah ye.. and so kelua kan dari beg dgn hadiah nye.. he was kinda shocked actually.. sbb aku cakap budget lari aje kan.. jadi bila ada hadiah, tak sangka la konon nye..

tgh bukak hadiah.. apa tu? haha! kotak kasut pompan? hehe...

muka da senyum sikit bila nampak kotak ni.. hehe.. ada apa2 ke..

bila da bukak hadiah.. terharu makanye aku beli kan dia hadiah yg dia nak.. haha! cute la sayang satu ni... alalala.. manja betul.. pasal i sayang you la apa you nak i belikan tau !
wah!! macho la dia.. haha! org nampak mmg mcm sunglass biasa.. tapi bila tengok betul2 fuh! mahal tuh... bila aku cuba pakai, clear giler dia nye lens... patut la mahal! harga eh? $_ _ _ ++ ada plus2 lagi.. glad he like it.. mesti la suka, idaman makanye... da tak ada jual lagi kat Singapore ni..

up close hadiah nye.. sunglass by Rudy Project.. you can see the reflection? terang giler makanye... i felt satisfied get to buy this for him... dia kata, tiap2 bday, apa i nak, you kasi eh.. i nak psp dapat, i nak rudy project dapat.. tahun depan i nak Super 4 ok.. ha kau! da siap nak hadiah apa tahun depan.. gile nye abang.. itu motor beli sendiri ok..

and so.. now, i'm broke, but i'm happy...

if only we're not pretending in love with each other...

nor we're playing trick on each other...

sealed with a kiss
11:54 PM

Friday, January 05, 2007

sealed with a kiss
10:11 PM

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

ok so 2007 da dtg.. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!! HOPE YOU HAVE A PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR AHEAD...

so, where have i been missing? missing aje.. malas nak update.. sbb tak ada benda sgt terjadi..

ok, smlm kan, gi jalan2 dgn abg.. ewah, da official ok.. me and him balik bersama.. alah, no big deal la ek... gaduh, patch, gaduh, baik.. haiz.. but still, he's the only one yg betul2 faham dgn aku, so ya, i love him.. haha! nak muntah la pulak..

dia da pasang speaker kat motor.. so kita naik motor da tak sunyi lagi.. hehe.. cuma kuat sgt dia bukak.. and we unleash both our mat & minah dgn our picked song.. haha! tapi mmg org2 yg ada motor ber-speaker ni, mesti on lagu2 gitu la kan... tapi smlm pun sempat gaduh makanye....

ok, january da dtg.. makna nye??? bday dia pun coming... haha! pening lagi kepala aku.. tapi dis time round aku tak pening2 sgt cari hadiah dia.. sbb da tau apa.. mcm last year kene minta tolong abg mad sume teman beli psp.. yg mana skrg ni dia da tak pakai sgt psp tu.. hmph, buang karen jek beli.. hehe. so dis year, sekali lagi aku berkorban beratus2 dolar utk hadiah dia.. tapi tak la semahal psp, sekadar yg termampu aje.. nak tau apa?

ha, itu dia.. the exact model.. dia belum tau lagi yg aku da belikan dia.. nak sgt cermin mata ni. exclusive kat singapore sbb cuma dua tempat aje di-authorized kan utk mengedar cermin mata ni.. haha! rasa puas ah dapat belikan dia.. tak sabar nak kasi dia.. da cantik aje kat rumah ni.. hmmm.. hafta wait beberapa hari lagi..

oh ya, sekola da pun buka.. and budak2 pun da dtg skola... and apa lagi.. penat pun da dtg.. baru habis pakai Osim i-squeeze.. sedap sikit kaki..

ok la, ramalan cuaca kata hujan semalaman di serata singapura, jadi selamat tido dan mimpi yg indah2... haha! BYE!!!!

sealed with a kiss
9:13 PM