Different faces of me

Sunday, October 09, 2005

how should i begin.. okay, let's start from here. me thinking of a place for buka together.. asked him to follow me to suntec for the body shop sale. he did sent me there. end up, he break fast at home. how hurt it could be.
and no, it's not a "bye sayang, selamat berbuka" type of bid. instead vroom.. off he go. why? coz of something that i said.

he saw a super 4 bike and sighed on when he gonna get that kind of bike.

i hate him when he sigh.

i hate him when he gives up easily without trying.

i hate him when he said that he's useless.

so i said get your 2a class than we can think of getting one. if you have read my past post in July, i wrote that i would like to save ( and we are saving up together ) to get him a big bike. i am here praying day in day out for him to get what he dreams. but he like to give up easily. and with my words, he felt hurt.

and he pulled long face. i am hurt by his action. and at the same time realised my mistake and apologized. he did not accept it. he sent me home and off he went.

what he don't know is that why i am wanted so so much to break fast with him outside is that,i told mama i would not be home for buka, so mama cooked seafood dishes and nothing but seafood. everybody knows i am allergic to it. and when he's home and told him about it, he could not be bothered. and ya, up till now, i have not touched any food except for A plain biscuit. how much more of hurt must i carry and endure? is it true that love hurts??

anyway, i know he won't bother to know and care if i have eaten or not coz i am sure he will definitely won't be calling me tonight so ya, good night everyone.

sealed with a kiss
1:00 PM