Different faces of me

Saturday, September 30, 2006

sealed with a kiss
11:24 PM

Sunday, September 24, 2006

If you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it was, and always will be yours. If it never returns, it was never yours to begin with.
is it true with this quote? i dunno eh.. it seems that is what happening to me.. i let him go and let him go with the one he love.. he comes back to me now, so does it mean that he will always be mine?
ppl say that he might just make me his stand in missus. when he found the right one, he may go away AGAIN. it really confusing being in my shoe. how to make him stay forever with me... i admit, i still love him. i love him dearly.. i love him wholeheartedly.. but does he? i bet he doesn't.
aaaaarrrrgggghhhhhh!!!!
i hate it man when this love thingy start to corrupt my mind. i have tons of work to do.. i have many things to settled.. so please, if you do love me, please say so.. if you don't, tell me too so i don't hang on to you.. Please, pretty please..

ok on a lighter note, Ramadan Mubarak to all Muslims. May this Ramadan be filled with Iman & Taqwa. May Allah bestow Nur & Barakah in your life and may Allah always keep you on the straight path.. Amin ya Rabbal Alamin..

sealed with a kiss
11:32 AM

Monday, September 18, 2006

hi all.. hmm, what have i been doing eh lately? NOTHING! haha.. that's what i do the whole week.. met up with him only.. which him? him la.. haha!

oh ya, just remembered, HAPPY BELATED ABG MAD!! we duduk2 with him, kak ayu, abg ammar, abg mail and kak aliyah, abg ayub and abg HAMZA..on thursday.. where's the rest of MJ? hilang tanpa berita.. haha..

and that night, i got his msg.. which his? itu la.. i have been avoiding him.. i dunno y i avoid him, he's been nice to me.. but i'm just blind. i just cannot accept him.. it's sad.. seeing someone going away from you and ready to mengalah.. i let him go.. dia sungguh baik.. cuma dia tak akan berubah.. i miss him, i know he misses me even more.. but my heart just didn't open up.

haiz, but i know, he will move on without me.. cuma, aku harap dia akan berubah.. aku doa jgn la dia kembali ke dunia lama dia.. aku tak ada lagi utk nasihat kan dia.. aku tak ada lagi.. dia mesti pincang kan? am i bad????

ada org sayang, aku tolak.. ada org tak sayang, aku tunggu...

ok, enuff of that.. i enjoy this carefree life. kelua dgn siapa ku suka.. berbual dgn siapa ku suka.. TAPI!!! aku masih nak DIA!!!

haha! giler la aku ni..

suppose to go out seh hari ni.. but cancel sbb ada org tu sakit.. bluek. tapi tak pe, aku jadi anak baik.. masak utk family daging masak kicap dgn sayur peria. best kan? then kita ramai2 makan sesama.. then aku kemas2 rumah, then siap kan minuman ptg pulak dgn jemput2. hehe.. siapa nak masuk minang, aku da pass da..kahwin? lama la lagi..

ok la, nak puasa eh next week? tak sabar!!!

sealed with a kiss
11:56 AM

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

sealed with a kiss
6:47 AM

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

kenapa la aku bodoh sangat dlm bab cinta ni? kenapa aku sanggup menjadi hamba kepada cinta? kenapa aku dijadikan insan yg hanya mahu menyintai hanya kepada dia? kenapa itu semua?

bila aku tau, sememangnya dia tidak menyintai ku lagi,
bila aku tau, dia memilih si dia..
bila aku tau, hanya maut yg bole memisahkan mereka..

kenapa aku masih sayang kepada org yg terlalu amat melukakan hati ku???

sakit hati ku bila dia menyatakan yg dia masih bersamanya.. tapi kenapa kata2 rindu yg kau ucapkan kepada aku? kenapa kau masih menyatakan kau mahu memiliki aku, tapi hanya masa yg akan menentukan? kenapa???

siapa yg bole berikan aku jawapan? kenapa aku tidak bole membukakan hati ku kepada lelaki2 lain yg mendambakan cinta dan ketulusan ku? kenapa aku masih menanti kan dia?

i lost you once and i don't wanna lose you again..

itu la kata2 nya kepada diriku selalu.. kenapa? sungguhpun sebagai kawan... tapi, tidak kah dia tahu, yg selagi dia ada disini, aku hanya mahu mendambakan hati nya yg pernah ku miliki satu ketika dahulu...

aku mahu kita bersama.. tapi dia seringkali mencari silap ku.. kata nya, mampukah aku menjaga nya? dan ditambah, aku pernah melukai hati nya sekali, dan dia sudah serik.. bagai mana cara aku melukai nya? dia sendiri kurang pasti..

tidakkah dia ketahui, kalau dia kata, sekali aku melukai hati nya, berkali2 hati ku dipanah luka.. berkali2 hati ku direjam2.. berkali2 hati ku digilis2..

senang utk nya menyatakan utk meneruskan kehidupan.. senang la utk nya.. dia mempunyai seseorg yg dia sayang.. tapi aku?

pada siapa aku ingin menyatakan rindu?
pada siapa aku ingin menyatakan sayang?
pada siapa aku ingin menyatakan hanya kau la segalanya?

dikala ku berduka, pada siapa ku harus mengadu?
dikala ku kesepian, pada siapa harus ku merawan lara?
dikala ku memerlukan dibelai manja, pada siapa harus ku pinta?

Sendiri....
Kukemas air mata di pipi
Tak percaya 'ku yang t'lah terjadi
Cintamu kini telah terbagi
Haruskah cinta aku akhiri
Hanya sampai di sini

Tak mungkin....
Aku berpaling dan menyudahi
Tercabik hati ingin meronta
Jangan kau rejam gairah yang ada
Haruskah aku mengemis cinta
Untuk menghilangkan duka

Asmara...
Kemana lagi akan kucari
Siapa yang 'kan mengusir sepi
Disaat 'ku sendiri

Asmara...
Mungkinkah kau sampaikan padanya
Walau hatiku penuh derita
Aku masih s'lalu cinta....

sealed with a kiss
2:32 PM

Thursday, September 07, 2006

yesterday were spent on bringing down the pictures we as a couple... now, none of his picture in my room.. bila turun kan satu2, berat hati ini.. pilu sekali.. baca surat yg dia beri sblm berpisah, aduh.. sedih sekali.. but, i think it is the time that i move on..
now the pictures were replaced dgn gambar2 make over.. hehe.. i like!
well today, beli make up!! wow!! suka sekali.. hehe.. pusing nye pusing nak cari discount utk Loreal True Match.. at last kat Metro tgh sale!!!! suka!!!!
then beli sim card baru.. so sesiapa nak number baru, hmmmmm.. ntah eh mcm mana nak kasi.. add aku kat msn then ku kasi k? tau tak add msn apa?
rascalatwork@hotmail.com
okay, so tadi pun da kemas beg and i'm ready to go to Genting!!! Yahooo!!!
itu aje la utk hari ni.. hehe.. malas sebenarnya.

"aku ada kerna kau pun ada.."
tapi fikir2 balik, siapa yg ada?

sealed with a kiss
12:13 PM

Saturday, September 02, 2006

1st of all, lemme wish all the teachers out there, A HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY to you.. keep up the good work in moulding the heart of the young ones and those who's keen in gaining knowledge.. cewah!

and ya, as usual, my company had a celebration for all of us. and it was held at Carlton Hotel. ok jugak la.. our theme for this yr is, GLITZ AND GLAM. so pakaian pun nak kene la kan..

enjoyable la kan.. ada part happy2, ada part nangis2. it's a mixed of emotional night. tapi yg penting, everybody enjoy smlm nye celebration. this is my third yr celebrate with iMAN kindergarten. and thanks to the management who've made a good job. THANK YOU!!

and so, apa aku menang eh? okay, aku and partner dapat best Student Led Conference nye apa ntah.. hehe.. we didn't even know that we actually did a good job. haha! then ada la dapat lucky draw.. and what's the best part kan, one of my bosses cakap, when he wanted to announce my name, "someone whom i see have made a drastic in her physical change" hehe.. apa maksud tu... tungguuu...

and we got the 3rd placing for the best ctr. tak pe la, but in our heart, we know that we are the best! cuma org je yg tak NAK nampak..

for our performance last nite, we won the 1st place!!! Yahoo!!!!! last yr 2nd, this yr naik balik la 1st. Congrats ladies!! all our effort paid off. we dance to a medley of Rasuk-Pudar-Otra Noche. best giler wa ckap sama lu! bukan nak puji ctr sendiri. but can see seh. haha! sorry la kpd staff2 lain ctr yg terKEPO baca blog aku ni.. :) dpt trophy.. kita aje dpt.. haha! like duh!

ok, and this is it, my fav event.. Miss Iman.. okay, it's like a beauty pageant sorta competition. beauty with brains ya. and ehem, i represented Tampines. i had to compete with 4 other beauties from other ctrs. pressure seh.. we had to catwalk, and there's also Q&A segment.. haha! feeling2 gitu.

and jeng jeng jeng.. the winner for Miss IMAN 2006 goes to MISS EASMARIZA BTE MOHAMED YUNOS!!!!!!! WOOOOHOOOO!!! haha! terkejut daku.. wanna see the pictures? i'll upload it in a jiffy.

after the event, there's also ladies hour. we had fun dancing on the dance floor. mcm kat club. haha!

and oh ya? u listen to Ria just now? Hafeez glamour called me to interview me!! i'm on National Radio.. hehe.. he asked about the challenges in teaching and said "dengar2 menang dlm ehem2.. anda ni paling cantik ye".. how in the world does he know that?

so here the pictures..

me with my children of Damascus 1.. ni muka belum make up lagi..

with my dearest mama, she came to pick up all the gifts.. nampak kat belakang tu? aku nye la tu sume.. dia pun terkejut tengok aku..

me with my best fren aini and ros.. sume purple la kan..

me with partner..

me with liesa and nana.. MJ jugak kita ni.. Mami Jarum...

us when doing our thang.. best sekali joget..

Miss iman contestants from left: Nisa from PRCC, Faseha from Katong, Yours Truly from Tampines, Siti Nadiah from Wdgrv, Lydia from Jurong..

left with Nana and me.. waiting to be announce the winner..

all the winners with our big maam, Madam Salamah..

our very own Miss Iman.. siap dgn sash, tiara, trophy and a crystal jewellery set. Thanks to my Mak Andam for the fantastic outfit and the fantabulous make up and everything. thanks!! org kata da mcm Siti kahwin..

eh dah la eh.. penat la pulak.. hehe... anyway, gonna go on a date this sat, sun & monday.. siapa kah yg akan berjaya memikat hati beta ini.. kwang3..

bye semua!!! Happy Teachers day!!

sealed with a kiss
5:30 AM